Testing waters

Ch.20 PARTAYYY

"Savannah please just tell me" Ryan said still wearing the same worried expression. "She was going to say that I um..." "That I cut" I whispered. "You what!" He said almost yelling. "Yesterday When I skipped school she was the reason and I got home and I cut only that one time and I swore I would never do it again!" I said. "Let me see them" he said I nodded and lifted up my sweater to let him see the many cuts going up and down my wrists to my elbow. "I'm sorry" I whispered. "Don't apologize just promise me you will never ever harm yourself again please" he pleaded. " I promise babe" I said.

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Have you ever had that moment when you woke up on a Saturday then realized it was the weekend and did that weird happy dance that looked like your having a miny seizure under your blankets? Well that's basically what I just did and I'm practically jumping with joy. I was snuggling under my. Divers when my phone started ringing. "Hello?" I said. "Hey babe it's Ryan one of my friends is hosting a party and he invited me to bring a friend it's at 8:00 want to go with me as my date?" He asked. "Ya sure" I said not thinking twice about going to a high school party. "Ok see you then" he said. I hung up and jumped out of bed down the stairs. My dad worked weekends to so also wasn't here I felt like I didn't even see him anymore ever since Mom... He just hasn't really been my dad.

I poured my self a bowl of cereal and munched down every last bight before jumping on the couch to watch tv I looked at the clock and realized I slept till 12:00 pm which was pretty late for me but also meant I had enough time to prepaid an outfit before the party.

I worked on my weekend homework and did the rest of my chores until the cloud read 6:00 and so I jumped into the shower and combed out my hair before curling it. I looked at the fresh bouncy curls satisfied before walking into my room to pick out a outfit. I didn't have much party clothes but I finally settled on a sliming blue dress that was longer than about half way down my thighs and covered me up nicely. I walked back to my bathroom applying a little make up so I didn't look like I had face on my makeup but the other way around. I then slid on some matching blue heals and looked at my self in the mirror approvingly and looked at the clock 7:30 which meant he would be here soon.

I grabbed my purse and applied finishing touches to my look before Ryan nocked on the door and I ran down the stairs to open it. He was waiting a blue polo shirt and jeans. "You look amazing oh my god" he said looking at my outfit. "Thanks right back at you" I said and he placed a kiss on my cheek and pulled me into his arms.

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We made it at the party music was blasting and there were tons of sweaty teenagers around the house holding paper cups. "This is so not my scene" I yelled over the music to Ryan. "Don't worry it will be fun" he said and I nodded holding his hand tightly as we made it through the crowd to the kitchen, there were some chips ,pizza and punch but there was also all sorts of alcohol which made me not trust the punch so I just stuck with chips. "Want some punch?" Ryan asked holding two cups. "No dude the stuff is probably spiked" i said. "Stop being so paranoid it's punch" he said laughing and chugged down one of the cups handing me the other one. I placed it on the table and when I turned back around Ryan was gone probably taken away by some friends.

I danced by myself in the crowd holding an empty paper cup pretending like there was something in it so I didn't look like a complete loser. "Hey hot stuff" I heard a voice whisper in my ear. I immediately thought I was Ryan so turned around but was wrong when I saw Cameron. "Hey cam what's up" I asked nervously. "I don't know how about you" he slured placing a hand on my waist, "your drunk Cameron you should go home" I said. "No I'm liking the view" he said smiling and placing one hand on my cheek leaning in to kiss me when I pushed him off in disgust. "Get off you know I have a boyfriend!" I yelled and he backed away stumbling over to a wall and I ran off in search of Ryan.

I was running towards Ryan when I ran into Bella with her posey, "hey Sav! Here drink this" Bella slured wearing a extremely short dress and so much make up I barely recognized her, I took the cup and without even thinking poured the white liquid down my throat the liquid burned the back of my mouth and I coughed as soon as I swallowed it. "Yeah whoo! Let's party!" She said and her and her friends started dancing and soon I joined in too. Soon enough I was taking shots and didn't even know who was giving them to me anymore I felt so let lose and free and relaxed but at the same time I felt like I was going to fall over at any given time.

Ryan's POV

I rushed through the crowd in search of Savannah ignoring the drinks people were handing to me. I pushed through the crowd and finally found her dancing with Bella and drinking who knows what. "Savannah!" I yelled and pushed through the crowd and wrapped a arm around her waist pulling her into me she smelled like alcohol great she was drunk. "Hey Ryan baby! Dance with me come on" she said and started kissing me down my neck. "Sav stop we half to get you home!" I said and pulled her off of me carrying her bridal style out of the house to my car.

I knew If I took her home like this her dad would probably notice so I took her to my place instead. I Carried her light body up to my room and let her sit on the floor. "Are you tired" I asked. "No I wanna go back please take me back baby!" She whined. "No it's time to go to bed" I said and helped her take of her shoes and she crawled into my bed and soon fell asleep.