Testing waters

Ch.23 Pheobe keep your little mouth shut

I ran straight outside the school avoiding teachers and other students. I made my way to my car and sped down the streets to her house scared out of my mind. I didn't want to think that she would Harm herself but she's done it before she could do it again. I finally pulled into her drive way and jumped out of my car and started to frantically banging on the door there was no answer. I finally lost it and pressed my foot against the door bracing my self before kicking it open and running into the house. I saw her bag on the floor the contents sprawled around.

I looked around for any signs of her before rushing to her room, nothing I ran to the bathroom that was connected to her room and could her quiet sobs on the other side. "Savannah please let me in!" I shrieked. "I-I can't" she said and started to sob louder. "Savannah I will kick this door down if you don't open it I'm warning you now!" I yelled. "1" "2" before I got to three the door swung open and I saw Savannah standing I front of it blood dripping down her arms and covering her floor. "Baby" I cooed looking at her with pure fright. She didn't answer just continued to sob tears covering her face her perfect eyes puffy and bright red. Her face was pale. "Your losing a lot of blood baby" I said and ripped off my shirt putting it around her arms as she sobbed. I laid her on her bed and looked around the bathroom and started cleaning up the blood finding blades in it. I picked up the blades and placed them in my pocket so she couldn't get them. After looking the bathroom over I went back over to Savannah and cuddled up beside her letting her shake in my arms from crying.

"Why do you care you don't even like me!" She whispered. "I love you baby Bella pressed me against the wall and I tried to pull away but then I was to late and.." I trailed off. She was silent for a minute before she turned around so she was facing me gripping my shirt to her wrists. "I'm sorry I promised not to do it and I did!" She said and started to cry again I sighed pulling her into my chest. "Don't worry baby" I cooed.

Savannah's POV

I tried to conceal the pain from my wrists but knew it wouldn't matter even if I didn't hat was happening to me? I was turning into a complete wreck. I looked into Ryan's glossy eyes he wasn't crying but looked like he would. "It isn't your fault" I said sighing. "But you wouldn't have done it if I" he shook his head. "I could have just pulled her off me" he said. "That's what you were trying to do I know" I said wiping the tears from my face and faintly smiling. "I'm so sorry" he said pulling me closer to him if that were even possible. "Me too" I whispered and nuzzled my face into his neck.

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A few hours later Ryan helped me bandage up my arms and I changed into some sweats and a t shirt with my hair down my other clothes were covered in blood. After a few minutes if Ryan and I hanging out I got a nock on the door and I walked down the stairs opening the door. "Savannah" Jenna wheezed out panting heavily and I realized she had been running. "Jenna?" I asked surprised. She finally looked at me and then noticed my arms. "Oh god" she gasped. "Um do you need something because..." Is isn't know how to finish my sentence sol just left it their her eyes still wide staring at my bandages. "Sav?" I heard Ryan ask from behind me. I turned to face him when he came to the door looking at Jenna with disgust. "Get out!" He yelled causing her to step backwards. "I'm sorry!" She shrieked before running down my steps down the street. "Sorry for what?" I asked Ryan. He had already told me what she had done but hat was she apologizing about now?

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The worst part about the bandages was it limited what I could wear. I decided on a purple long sleeve shirt with a V neck and white jeans. My hair was pulled into a braid which rested on my shoulder and I wore brown boots that went up almost to my knees. I grabbed my bag and collected all the things that were in it carefully placing them back in. I sighed looking at the mess and remember the bathroom. I was really early so I decided to walk to Ryan's house. I made it to his front door and quietly nocked. Jasper opened the door and looked at me blankly. "Is Ryan here?" I asked. "Uh, yeah I'll go get him" he responded. I still don't understand why that kid didn't like me. "Hey" Ryan said holding his back pack and keys kissing me on the cheek. "Hey" I responded hugging him tightly.
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We made our way to the school and walked inside hand and hand. People stared at me whispering and shuffling away. I looked at everyone confused. "She's the one that cuts" I heard someone whisper and I stopped dead in my tracks a tear slipping down my cheek. Without a second thought I turned around to where I heard the whisper come from and slapped them in the face, "ow god what's your problem?" A girl asked I think her name was phoebe but I couldn't be sure. "Stop spreading rumors" I snapped and wiped the stray tear in my face away. "But their not rumors if their true" she sternly said. "What do you mean if their true how on earth would you know?" I yelled causing her to step back and by now everyone in the hallway was silent.

"Ask Jenna that idiot" she snapped before pushing past me and storming down the hallway. Ryan grabbed my hand pulling me into him hugging me softly.

"I'm going to get Jenna" I decided before leaving Ryan and storming down the hallway.