"Behind it" - Cai Xukun FF (ip+sk ff)

Chapter 24 - You...

Natalie's POV

I woke up to the bright sun shining onto my face through the window. Unwillingly, I opened my eyes and sat down on the bed as a wave of pain rushed through my whole body. I looked to my left side to find a sleeping Xukun there. His eyes gently closed in a deep sleep and his features as peaceful as a child's ones. A child that had never been hurt.

I'm so sorry about you, Xukun...

I looked around and found our clothes lying on the floor messily. I breathed in and the memory from last night flashed in my mind.

"It's because I love you, Natalie,"

Xukun's eyes never left mine as he said those words. I couldn't say a thing and I was just staring right into his chocolate brown eyes as milion thoughts ran trough my mind. I didn't know if time stopped or if I just stopped breathing for a brief moment. Was I shocked? Was I happy?...All I had known was that...I didn't know.

"They know I would never forgive myself if something happened to you but I'm not sure how did they find out. I was trying to be careful but I guess it didn't work perfectly. I liked you from the first time I saw you in front of the restaurant but back then I didn't know. I was curious about you. I was curious if there is something more behind that pretty face of yours and then I found out that there is something more...a lot more. And even thought I was a total jerk I was trying to keep you all safe but I swear I couldn't tell you who I really was. I just couldn't and it all to keep you safe. I've never forgotten about you. For these three years we haven't seen each other it was you who has been occupying my mind. I was even sometimes checking on you if you're okay. Then when you moved here I've never missed any of your performance, I swear."

I was listening in disbelief not being able to believe I was hearing right. Could it be really possible?

I couldn't speak. Any word didn't want to come out of my mouth as my mind went blank again.

"That's why they're tiring you, don't let you sleep and live normally because they know it hurts me too. You have no idea how much pain it has caused me."

"So these murders are also they work? And the victims are similar to me...just to scare me?" I asked as my brain turned on again and I started to connect some facts together.

"Yes...that's exactly why...they're probably testing a new drug but the choice of victims isn't accidental."

"And you're saying it's all...it's all...just because...you...you..." I stuttered wasn't able to say those words out loud. It was so hard to believe even thought I really did want it to be true. I did. I didn't know why...maybe I had also have fallen for him. I didn't know when, how, why...but I started to realise I just did it.

Love is really unpredictable. You never know where you can find it and it always appears in the strangest moments with the strangest people. It just fills you up slowly without your notice. When you realise...you want to denny it sometimes. You don't want it to be true but you can't change it. You're scared.

Sometimes you don't have to be scared and then it turns out that all those fears were useless.

But Xukun's love for me was dangerous.

It could get me killed.

And somehow I liked that. I wanted to take that risk and...I did love him back.