Complexes (LGBT) (boyxboy)

chapter 15

Chapter 15

My mind was unbalanced as I stood by the alcohol. I had been at the party for a couple of hours now and was trying to make my next choice. I felt like if I had any more hard liquor then I'd be sick, so I went for some beer. I grabbed two plastic cups and messily poured some beer into them from a nearby keg.

I staggered back over to Lucas. It took every ounce of whatever was still sober in me to not push him onto his back and kiss the hell out of him. Instead I sEmilyed a safe enough distance away, sitting next to him, barely touching. "I got this for you," My speech was slurred, but I was fine. I felt great as I handed him the beer. He took it but placed it on the floor.

I frowned at him. "I've had enough for tonight," he explained, talking loudly so I could hear him over the music. "You've had like...this many," I said and held up three fingers. "I don't like to drink too much," he said with a shrug. "But...but it's fun," I giggled, "But you don't have to. That's A-Okay." I sat back a little and sipped my drink, looking around.

There were a lot of people in here now. Just moments ago I was up being an idiot with Casey.

I had turned into one of those people I watched being stupid at parties. I admit it was fun though. On the most part Lucas had been sitting here or sometimes talking to someone from the team like Erik or Jonah. This was the first time in a little while that I had actually sat with him though. I looked at him, smiling. My nerves had flown out the window and I kind of wanted to be alone with him but I had enough common sense left not to suggest that. "Why are you looking at me?" Lucas asked, a small smile on his face. I simply laughed. If only he knew what was going on in my mind right now.

I wanted to ask him to dance, but there were so many people around who knew me. I wanted to keep how I felt about Lucas a secret. They would all know just how into him I was if I danced with him because I knew I wouldn't be able to keep my hands off him. I could barely control these thoughts right now. It was like the wall that I had up was knocked down, all thanks to a little friend called alcohol. I knew it was probably a bad idea to drink so much, but the more it calmed me down, the more I drank. "You've had a lot to drink. Maybe you should slow it down," Lucas said. "Maybe...M-maybe you should fast it up," I replied. That made no sense, which just made me laugh again. "I honestly wouldn't have picked you to be the type of guy to get this wasted," he said. "I'm not wasted. I-I-I'm not," I shook my head, pouting.

"And yet here you are...on what, your tenth drink?" he questioned. I frowned, looking down at the drink. Okay, so maybe I did have a little too much to drink. "Mmm...yes," I admitted, "But...but it's because I am nervous." "Nervous?" he asked. "Yes," I said as a matter of fact. "Why?" he asked. "Because..." I sighed, "Because you have really pretty eyes. And that's okay. I'm...I'm a guy and you...you are also of the male gender and...and it's 2014, why can't a guy compliment another guy on his eyes, right?" "Right," he chuckled. I smiled at the way his eyes lit up when he laughed. He was so beautiful. "So...are you having fun?" I asked. "Yeah," he nodded, but I noticed something was off. I leant forward, looking into his eyes, seeing that little flicker of deceit. "You're not," I said. He sighed, shaking his head, "I told you, parties aren't my thing." "Well...you gotta...y-you just gotta have some fun!" I exclaimed.

He looked a little unsure. "I don't know. I think I might head off soon," he said. I shook my head in confusion. He couldn't go. He had to sEmily. I wanted him to sEmily. The night's not even nearly over yet. Before I got the chance to argue though, I was being dragged from the couch. I looked up as I stumbled away from Lucas and saw my friend Hayley taking me towards the dance floor. "Come on! I have to have at least one dance with you tonight," she said happily. I looked back over at Lucas. "But...but I...I..." I stopped and looked back at Hayley. I guess one dance couldn't hurt.