Complexes (LGBT) (boyxboy)

chapter 24

Chapter 24

We were on our movie date with Eddie and Casey. 

It was a little bit awkward knowing that they knew about us. It was okay with Eddie, but Casey was being his usual self by trying to make us feel comfortable by being overly weird and saying stupid things. It was just strange and I felt like he was watching our every move. 

I knew he was just trying to be supportive though. There weren't many people in the spacious movie theatre tonight because it was Wednesday night. 

Most people would wait until the weekend to come here. There were a few people here though sitting up the front and the middle, all of which I didn't recognize. The boys and I were sitting right up the back Sitting next to Lucas reminded me of the last time we were here together and how we weren't actually together. I had been strangely nervous and had no idea what I was feeling, and only now do I realize why I had acted that way. It was because I never stopped having feelings for him. It was different now. I felt like a different person with him. 

I was actually with him. I had him. I wasn't with some random girl I'd be rid of after a few days.

 I was with someone I cared for and right now that meant everything to me. We were half way through the movie and this time I was actually trying to pay attention to it. Trying being the key word here. Lucas's arm hung off the side of the arm rest, his fingers absent-mindedly trailing along the material of my jeans on my thigh. He didn't realize he was doing it, or at least I didn't think he did. I glanced at him out of the corner of my eye. 

He was so engrossed in the movie. 

His eyes didn't hold that glimmer of playfulness when he was purposely teasing me. His fingers were sending shivers through me and I had to put an end to it. I took his hand, lacing my fingers with his. He looked at me briefly, giving a small, innocent smile before looking back at the screen. 

My fucking heart swooned. 

I hated feeling this way but loved it at the same time.

 I leant in and lightly kissed his cheek, getting a small giggle from him.

 I relaxed back in my seat and went to watch the movie, only to see that Eddie was looking at me, or staring more like it. "What?" I whispered. "Nothing." He shook his head and looked away. 

Now I felt self-conscious. Why couldn't I just go on a date with my boyfriend without having a million conflicting feelings all at once? I felt weird with friends here, so much so that I let go of Lucas's hand, crossed my arms over my chest and stopped leaning towards him. 

Lucas didn't take much notice of my change in behavior. He was oblivious. I kind of wished Eddie and Casey weren't here. No, I kind of really wished we were back in our dorm where I could just kiss him forever without worrying about anyone seeing, or about my friends making fun of me for it. "You can act normal with him." Eddie whispered into my ear so the other two wouldn't hear. "I know." I grumbled. I did know that. I knew I shouldn't care what they thought, and it wasn't just the fact that it was Lucas that I was with. It was complicated. I didn't like showing affection in front of my friends, which sounded so ridiculous to me because I had literally had sex in the same room Eddie was in before. Somehow that didn't count as affection to me. 

It was so different and such a new territory for me. Eddie stood up next to me, and so did Casey who was next to him. They then climbed over the backs of the chairs in front of us, then another row, and sat down two rows in front of us. I almost wanted to tell them to come back and ask them what the hell they were doing, but then I realized what they were doing.