Complexes (LGBT) (boyxboy)

chapter 39

Chapter 39

I was half asleep when Eddie plonked himself down on the side of my bed. I groaned, rolled over and pretended I was asleep. It was bad enough that it was morning. I didn't need him bothering me too. "I know you're awake." He said. "Good for you." I mumbled. "Are you going to get up today?" He asked. "Probably not." I said.

I pulled the sheet over my head, wanting to shut out him and the world. "Connor..." He whined, "You've spent the past four days in here sleeping and doing nothing. It's not good for you." "Eddie..." I started and stopped.

I didn't even feel like talking. "I'm worried about you. You need to get outta here." He said. "I can't." I said. "What do you mean you can't?" He asked. He pulled the sheet away from my face and I sighed, rolling onto my back and looking up at him. "I mean...I just...I can't." I said.

I didn't know how to explain it to him without him thinking I was pathetic and telling me to get over it.

I had energy in me, but my mind wouldn't use it. It was like it was blocking it out. The thought of leaving this room gave me anxiety. I couldn't find the motivation to do anything.

All I wanted to do was lay here. "How about just something small for today. A shower and breakfast." He suggested. "I'm not hungry." I told him. "If you don't get up I'm just gonna keep badgering you." He taunted. I sighed, closing my eyes. Maybe I could telepathically make him leave me the hell alone. "You'd be amazed at how much better you'll feel after a shower." He said. I looked at him again.

He tried this with me every day since Bretttmas and everyday he would try a little harder. I knew he wouldn't give up any time soon. "Fine, if it'll make you shut up." I grumbled. "That's more like it!" He said cheerfully, "Now up and at 'em." He stood up, pulling my sheets with him, leaving me cold and giving me no choice but to follow through with our little agreement.

I left him without saying much else and had a shower which went a lot longer than I thought it would.

Eddie was right.

A shower did make me feel better, only a little bit though. Maybe it would be better for me to stop moping around so much. After my shower I got dressed and left the bathrooms. I headed down the hall towards the dining room because I actually was feeling pretty hungry now.

As I was approaching, Eddie was walking out. "No need to keep watch, Eddie. I'm doing what you asked." I said. "That's great," He said, "The food here sucks. Let's go to one of the café's downstairs for breakfast." "I really don't feel like going out." I said and went to walk past him but he blocked my way. "Come on. I'll pay." He offered. "You said shower and breakfast.

Leaving wasn't part of the agreement." I said.

I pushed past him this time and went into the dining hall. All it took was one glance inside to see that Lucas was sitting at a table eating breakfast. He was with Casey. I sighed and turned back to Eddie. "What, you think I'm gonna lose it if I see him?" I asked. "Well..." He said contemplatively. "I'm fine, Eddie." I told him even though I didn't really believe it. "You want some company?" He asked. "No. Now go away because you're getting on my nerves." I said. I gave him a small smile though to assure him I wasn't actually mad.

He returned it before nodded and leaving me.

I looked back inside the dining hall. Suddenly food wasn't that appetizing.

Part of me wanted to retreat, but I also wanted to go and talk to Lucas. It's been a week or so since the break-up so he was sure to have calmed down by now.

Maybe we could have an actual conversation about what our problems were and try to fix them. With that thought in mind I nervously went over to Lucas. Casey sitting there beside him wasn't exactly the best situation, but maybe an audience would mean less chances of an argument breaking out. "Hey." I said when I got to them.