Complexes (LGBT) (boyxboy)

chapter 34

Chapter 34

It was kind of like ripping off a band-aid. 

You do it quickly and in one swift motion so the pain all happens at once. 

That was what coming out to my team and everyone else watching in the crowd was like. I just wanted it to be over and done with so I could stop feeling so trapped and suffocated. 

Most of all I needed Lucas to know that this was how much I wanted to be with him. For a second, everything was okay, and I mean really okay. He melted against me and I could practically feel the forgiveness on his lips as he kissed me back. For that moment, all was well, and then it ended. 

The kiss that felt like it went forever was only mere moments and soon our lips were parting. My eyes were still closed and I couldn't hear anything even though I knew the roar of the crowd hadn't died down. 

The team? Coach?Referee? I couldn't hear any of them even though I knew they'd have something to say. I opened my eyes and saw Lucas looking back at me. Then I heard the crowd, then I heard the comments of shock coming from the team. I ignored them and just looked at Lucas. "Are you okay?" he asked cautiously. "I...I don't know," I barely choked out. 

My heart was pounding, my palms were sweating, my body was frozen. "Are we okay? Please tell me we're okay because I just..." I stopped, taking in a shaky breath. "We're fine," he said quickly. 

A smile was plastered his face and the light in his eyes had returned. 

He told me we were okay and he meant it. That was all that mattered right now. "I love you so much," I whispered. His smile widened and he looked away shyly. "Holy shit! I fucking knew it!" Ethan's booming voice made the fear and panic in me rise. I spun around to look at his shocked expression, and I wasn't really sure what to say. 

All eyes were on me and I felt okay, but a bit embarrassed. I wasn't embarrassed of Lucas, far from it. 

It was more of being affectionate, or of being something that these people in front of me said was wrong. Everyone just saw that happen. Everyone. They knew and there was no hiding now. "You got a fuckin' problem, pal?" Eddie spoke. 

He took a few steps so he was standing in front of me, quickly joined by Casey. "'Cause you can take it up with all of us," Casey added. I glanced around. Most of my teammates looked confused and were avoiding eye contact. Of course they'd act weird. 

I was this guy who was known for hooking up with a new girl every week. They wouldn't have expected this to happen. "Oh God this is priceless," Ethan said and started laughing. 

Was this what it was going to be like from now on? People laughing at me because of who I loved? I knew it was just Ethan and that his opinion wasn't something I should, or would ever, listen to, but it still got to me. "Ignore him. It's best to ignore him, them, all of them," Lucas said quietly by my side. That was easy for him to say. 

He was strong. Me? Not so much. "Ramirez!" It was Coach shouting this time. I looked over to see him marching towards us. 

He had an angry expression on his face, but then again he usually did. 

I kind of froze up a bit wondering what he was going to say about this. "Hate to break up the love fest, but you have a penalty kick for what that little shit did. Get a goal and we win this game. Go," Coach ordered and pointed towards where the referee was.

Was this what it was going to be like from now on? People laughing at me because of who I loved? I knew it was just Ethan and that his opinion wasn't something I should, or would ever, listen to, but it still got to me. "Ignore him. It's best to ignore him, them, all of them," Lucas said quietly by my side. That was easy for him to say.