If only (trans reader x Peter parker)

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"Nothing on Nat?" Bruce asked tony. "Nothing yet." He replied. "We're gonna need to access the program, break it down from within." Bruce Said. "Any chance Nat might leave you a message? Old school spy stuff?" I asked Clint. "I can try." He Said, leaving the lab. "Hello doctor banner." J.A.R.V.I.S Said from a hologram. "He wasn't angry. He was scared." Tony explained. "What's going on?" I asked. "He wants to put J.A.R.V.I.S's operating system into the body." Bruce explained briefly. I nodded along. They started whispering and I tuned out, observing J.A.R.V.I.S.

A couple days later, we were preparing to head back to sokovia. Everyone was working their asses off and Clint was panicking. "Shut it down!" Steve Said. "Never." Tony replied. Pietro fell through the floor and Clint pinned him down. "I'm re routing the upload." Tony Said. All hell broke loose and I just walked backwards into the hole Pietro fell through, landing, On him. Thor flew in the window and charged his hammer. "Thor no!" I yelled, jumping back to the main floor and jumping at him. A blast was set off and I fell backwards, passing out. I awoke seconds later to a red man on top of the cradle and glass shards in my flesh. He flew over to the giant window and Stared out it.

He turned back and apologized. Thor started explaining everything. "Are you? On our side?" Steve asked. "I don't think it's that simple. I am on the side of life." He Said. "What are you." I asked. "I am, the vision." He Said. "You're an android, right?" I asked. "That would be a fair assumption." He replied. "There May be no way to make you trust me, but we need to go." He Said, handing Thor mjolnir. We all stared as he took it. "Three minutes, get what you'll need." Steve Said. I ran off to my room and into my armoury. I got into my suit, got my swords and weapons and put on my mask. I grabbed my phone and left a sticky note on it. 'If anything goes wrong today tony, tell peter I loved him.' It read. I walked onto the runway and waited for everyone.

Steve gave some bullshit inspirational speech and we took off. We landed in sokovia and went our seperate ways. Bruce went off to find Nat. Pietro, Wanda and I were focussed on evacuating people. Everyone else was splitting up, evacuating. I heard tony groan over our earpieces. "Tony, you Alright?" I asked. "Yep. Just fine." He replied. I heard clinking behind me and turned on the spot. "Everybody go! Run!" I yelled, grabbing my swords. I charged the legionnaires and started tearing them, limb from limb before there was an almost earthquake like thing. "What the fuck?" I mumbled. "Language." I corrected myself. "Friday, what?" I asked. "Sokovia's going for a ride." She said. We started rising from the ground. "Everybody, get the population off, if you get struck, strike back. Not one soul is left on this city." I explained, running to the border.

"Friday, scan the buildings." I Said. "Those three buildings, 3rd, 7th and 12th floors!" She warned. "Crap." I mumbled, running towards the buildings and scaling them. I managed to get everybody out on time. But not myself. "If you get hurt, hurt em back. You get killed? Walk it off." Steve Said. "Steve, I'm gonna need a hand over here!" I Said into my earpiece. "I'm too far away, what's wrong?" He asked. "I'm trapped, building collapsed, I didn't make it out. If I don't make it, tell tony to check my phone." I Said. I was losing consiousness but I heard someone calling me and my body being pulled. "Y/n, y/n stay with me here!" He yelled. I fluttered open my eyes and was Clint, carrying me away from the building. There was a loud bang and we blew into a building.

"Hey. Hey you ok?" He asked Wanda, who happened to be in there too. "This is all my fault." She whimpered. "Hey, look at me! It's your fault, it's everyone's fault, who cares? Are you up for this? Are you? I need to know. The city is flying, and I have a bow and arrow. None of this makes sense but I'm gonna get back out there because it's my job. If you leave this room, you fight. you are an avenger." He Said. He left and I started coughing, tugging at my binder. I needed it off but I couldn't. "Fuck it." I mumbled, getting back up and bolting after Clint. I helped Steve and everyone clear cars from the edge of the island.

I started getting light but kept going. I headed towards Thor and Steve. "Thor, hit me." I Said. Legionnaires we're surrounding us. He twirled his hammer and I held up my shield. A blast was set off and all the legionnaires exploded. It was empty, quiet. "New plan, evacuate. We're blowing this place up." Tony Said. "You liking the view? It's about to get better." Director fury said. I turned around, confused. One of the S.H.I.E.L.D heli-carriers raised into the air. "Fury you son of a bitch." Steve Said. "Ooh! You kiss your mother with that mouth?" He asked, smartass tone coating his voice. We started carrying and bringing people to the life rafts. "Y/n, take a break!" Nat Said. I shook my head and sprinted, children in my arms.

We all returned to the city centre and started seriously fucking up some legionnaires. I could barely breathe but I didn't have time to stop. They just kept coming. I got my shield and started beheading them. It was epic. Thor, Tony And vision started beaming Ultron away. Bruce hit him away and growled at the leftover legionnaires. "C'mon guys, we need to go." Steve Said. " i can't." I Said. "Yes you can, run." He instructed. "No, I can't." I Said, falling over and coughing hysterically.  "Come on." He Said, picking me up and carrying me to the lifeboat things. I still was coughing, unable to stop. "What's stopping you from breathing?" He asked. I motioned to my chest. "Asthma?" He asked. I shook my head. "He's wearing his binder!" Tony yelled. I nodded, ignoring nearby gunshots.

Steve sat me up and unzipped my suit, pulling it off from my waist up. I started shaking my head and realised he wouldn't stop. "Do you want me to cover you or something?" He asked. I nodded. He grabbed my sheild and sat it on top of my chest as he pulled off my binder. My coughing fit ended and I was left gasping for air. "Come on, you're alright." He Said, hugging me. I held my sheild to my chest, dysphoria washing over me. Steve sat with me, not leaving for anything. "Steve, please can I put my suit back on?" I asked. He shook his head. "It was too tight, it's cut you up. If you put your suit on, it'll get infected." He Said. "I'm not exactly comfortable having my 'friends' out for anyone to see." I Said. "It's unsafe, lay back and we'll cover you up with our shields." He smiled. I nodded and passed out.