If only (trans reader x Peter parker)

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"It seems like the excessive amount of radiation and chemicals he's been exposed to have lead his body to mutate and be able to do this." Bruce said, walking up closer to me and examining my hands. "It's incredible. It's like my hulk but, portals." He said, poking and prodding at the portal. "But, why? How does this work?" I asked. "Seems like your body wasn't used to the chemicals and radiation of sokovia and such. Its like your genetic dna code has been re-written to give you these abilities." He said, turning back to me and inspecting my hands. "Peter I think you'd better head home now." Tony suggested. He nodded and looked at me.

I closed the current portal and opened another to his room. I smiled at him and waved as I watched him walk through it. I closed the portal and walked over to the kitchen island. "So kid, you like him?" Tony asked. If I was drinking, I would have choked. "Like him? As in like like him or as in friend like him?" I asked. "Jesus, do you have a crush on him?" He asked me. I pretended to act offended and scoffed. "No way. What gave you that idea?" I asked. "It's pretty obvious he's into you. And pretty obvious you're into him." Tony smirked, taking a sip of some whiskey he had on the bench.

"I don't like him and he doesn't like me." I said, biting my tongue. "Sure." He said, a sly smirk on his face. I groaned and went to walk towards the kitchen but was stopped by loud footsteps. I peered around the corner and sighed as I saw Steve bolting back and forth in the corridor. I gave up and walked into the lounge room, flopping onto a couch next to Thor. "Small child, why are you upset?" He asked me. I took in and let out a deep breath. "I'm not sad just, annoyed." I replied, fiddling with my fingers. "Why?" He asked. "Tony thinks I have a thing for this boy from school." I replied, looking over at him. "Well, do you?" He asked. I shook my head.

"Everyone thinks I do but we're just friends. Dating could and would break apart our friendship and I can't afford to lose him." I said, letting tears well up in my eyes. Thor visibly panicked and slowly patted me on the head. "There, there." He said slowly, long pauses between his words. I leant up against him and he moved his arm to hug me. "He was the only one there for me when nobody else was. When I came out, he was there. When I started transitioning, he was there. He was there when we bought my first binder." I chuckled, looking up to make eye contact. "I really just can't imagine losing him." I said, a single tear falling from my eye.

He nodded, trying to understand this nonsense I was babbling. "Well, if you ever need advice, come find me." He said, rubbing my arm. I nodded and sat up, walking to my room. The door closed behind me and I fell onto my bed, staying there for a moment unaware of what to do next. I took a deep breath and slowly stood up, walking over to my desk and while sitting in my chair, pulled out my drawers and fixed up my files, organising them by open and closed and date. I couldn't explain why but I felt, sad. I finished organising my files and walked into my bathroom, turning on the bath tap and putting the plug in the drain.

I lit some candles and turned off the ceiling light before undressing and sitting down in the bathtub. I closed my eyes and let the bath fill up to my shoulders and then turned it off, sitting in silence and the dark. After a few moments, a loud banging came from my bedroom door. I stupidly yelled out "in the bathroom!" I heard the door break down and opened my eyes, grabbing a towel and slowly getting out. I wrapped the towel around myself and opened the door a crack to see a man in all black going through my files next to my door, broken and on the floor. I took in a deep breath and ran out, somehow keeping my towel up as I kicked and punched him, pulling him to the ground. I took a moment to adjust the towel around me and make sure he was unconscious.

"F.R.I.D.A.Y, please ask Mr.Stark to come here as quick as possible." I asked. "Right away sir." She replied. I looked at his pocket, noticing a wallet. I pulled it out and searched it for ID, nothing besides a few photos of him and some kids. I sighed as I put his wallet back. I heard footsteps and stood up, adjusting my towel and holding it in place. "What's u-oh god." Tony said, poking his head in and then immediately turning back around. "Tony, serious issue here." I said. "What's happened?" He asked, still facing away. "Tony this guy broke into my room, he was going through my drawers." I said, sighing. Tony turned around slowly and looked at him.

"Why and how are you in here?" He asked, kneeling in-front of the man.  "What? Where is he from?" I asked. "An old friend. He used to live in this room but I threw him out after I found out he was taking stuff from my workshop." He said, taking the mans wallet. "Toomes you sick son of a." He said, searching the wallet and putting it back. "What do we do with him?" I asked. Tony pulled out his phone and showed me a photo of a jail cell. Looked like it was at rykers or the raft. "Open a portal?" I asked. He nodded and I turned to face the window wall. I stuck my hands out and focussed as a portal opened, Tony grabbed his hand and walked through, dragging him behind. He dropped him off and walked back in through the portal. I closed it behind him and sighed.

"Why? Why was he in my room?" I asked. "I don't know, maybe he left something in here?" He suggested. "Like what?" I asked. "I don't know, he was making shitauri weapons after the first big avengers battle." He replied. I nodded. "Well can I get you to get out please? I'd like to continue with my depression bath." I said. He nodded and walked out. I walked back into my bathroom and sighed, pulling the plug out and putting out the candles. I walked out into my room and ignored the broken door on my floor, walking to my wardrobe and pulling out a flannel, white shirt and jeans. I took a deep breath and put on my binder before putting on my outfit and walking out to the common room. "Hey, Tony?" I called. He turned around and nodded.

"Can I have people over tomorrow? Last day of summer and I want to spend it with my friends." I asked. He thought about it for a moment. "Who would be coming over?" He asked. "Ned, Peter and maybe Mj?" I replied. "That's alright with me." He said, giving me a smile. I walked towards him and gave him a quick hug, walking around the couch to sit next to him. "So, where is pepper?" I asked. "She's out on business." Tony replied. "Nice. What's everyone up to?" I asked. Steve looked up at me and raised a suspicious eyebrow. "What's got you so curious?" He asked. "Nothing, just want to know what everybody is doing." I replied.

"I do not believe that y/n." He replied. I sighed and got up, walking into the kitchen and opening a cupboard, and pulled out cake mix. "Do we have a mixer?" I asked. Tony nodded. "It's Birthday time." I said, smiling.