If only (trans reader x Peter parker)

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a/n: i'm so sorry this update took so long, i had the worst writer's block and have been putting my energy into trying to help my friends. with all said and done, happy reading :)

after class i headed straight home with peter. i needed to go talk to mr stark, i couldn't keep avoiding it. so i grabbed my suit and got changed, heading for the tower. i got stopped for photos on the way but used my bracelets to pick myself up to tony's workshop window. i looked through it and slid it open, crawling inside. "tony?" i called out, looking around. "tony are you here?" i called, walking around the large room. i'd never spent much time here, it was like a room i never knew the contents of. it was kept reasonably dark with large desks. i looked around but couldn't find anything. "hello, F.R.I.D.A.Y?" i called out. "y/n." she replied. "mr stark is asleep in the kitchen." she replied. i nodded and left to go find him. "tony." i called out. he snapped awake, staring at me before getting up and walking over to me, hugging me. "it's been so long." he whispered. i nodded, hugging him back. "tony we need to talk." i said. he nodded in agreement, standing up properly.

he walked with me to his workshop, sitting down and offering me a seat. "so what's up?" he asked. i took a breath and nodded. "i know you helped me with everything. i know you did so much to help me become a better man. i know you work your ass off to help me and to understand what my life is like. i know that you know i appreciated everything you did for me which is why i cannot even begin to understand how difficult it was for you to see me siding with steve." i said. "it broke me kid, i think that you sensed that. you heard the pause. we all did. but i know you have your reasoning and i understand that you think i'm wrong." he replied. "because you are wrong. you are wrong tony. it isn't bucky's fault at all. bucky wasn't the person that did all those things and he wasn't the person who killed your parents!" i said, my voice raising. "y/n you're wrong." he started. "no i'm not! hydra did all that to him, he didn't know what was going on. he was out of control. a body without its spirit." i said.

"y/n you're wrong. james killed my parents, james did those bombings all under the influence of H.Y.D.R.A" he replied. "so you agree then! that he was under the influence of something and not in the correct headspace?" i questioned. he shook his head. "y/n you need to leave." he said. "tony i came-" i was cut off. "GO!" he yelled. i stepped back quickly, shocked before grabbing my stuff and putting my mask on, crawling back outside the window and heading home. peter wasn't home yet, so i assumed may wasn't either. i crawled into peter's room through the window, lifting myself off the ground as to not make any noise. i floated over to the door and closed it, sighing gently. i heard creaking coming from the window and saw peter crawling in the bedroom. "shh!" i warned. he nodded and crawled across the ceiling to the door, getting down. "hey." he smiled. "hi." i said, taking off my mask. "what's wrong?" he asked. "just, some stuff going on. i'm fine." i replied, forcing myself out of my suit. it was tight. "tony said you went to see him." peter replied. i stopped and turned around, facing him. "i went to apologize." i replied. "y/n you broke him. you fought with the captain." he said. "well i'm sorry for doing what i felt was right." i replied, pulling a grey long sleeve shirt and some shorts on. "peter look, i'm not in a great headspace at the moment." i replied to myself. "yeah, you're pretty hormonal." he replied. i punched him in the arm and left the room, sitting on the couch with may.