If only (trans reader x Peter parker)

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Tony was home but we were still missing Bruce and Thor. "It's been 23 days since Thanos came to Earth." Rhodey said, the rest of us gathering around the table. "World governments are in pieces. The parts that are still working are trying to take a census. And it looks like he did. he did exactly what he said he was gonna do. Thanos wiped out fifty percent, of all living creatures." Natasha chimed in, putting one foot over the other "Where is he now? Where?" Tony asked, sitting with struggle in his voice. "We don't know. He just opened a portal and walked through." Steve replied, walking in. "What's wrong with him?" Tony asked, looking over at Clint. "Oh, he's pissed. He thinks he failed. Which of course he did, but you know there's a lot of that's going around, ain't there?" Rocket asked. "Honestly, until this exact second, I thought you were a Build-A-Bear." Tony replied. "Maybe I am." Rocket joked.

"We've been hunting Thanos for three weeks now. Deep Space scans, and satellites, and we got nothing. Tony, you fought him." Steve said. "Don't bring it up." I mumbled, still hurting from losing Peter. "Who told you that? I didn't fight him. No, he wiped my face with a planet while the Bleecker Street Magician gave away the store. That's what happened. There was no fight." Tony replied. "Ok." Steve mumbled. "He's unbeatable." Tony said. "We almost did until Star-prince fucked it up." I mumbled. "Did he give you any clues, any coordinates, anything?" Steve questioned. "Pfft! I saw this coming a few years back. I had a vision. I didn't wanna believe it. Thought I was dreaming." Tony ranted off. "Tony, I'm gonna need you to focus." Steve said, crossing his arms. "And I needed you. As in past tense. That trumps what you need. It's too late buddy. Sorry. You know what I need? I need to shave. And I believe I remember telling all youse-" Tony cut himself off, going for steve as rhodey jumped infront of him.

"Tony, Tony, Tony!" He said, stopping him. "Alive and otherwise what we needed was a suit of armor around the world! Remember that? Whether it impacted our precious freedoms or not- that's what we needed!" He said. "Well, that didn't work out, did it?" Steve asked. "I said, "we'd lose". You said, "We'll do that together too." And guess what, Cap? We lost. And you weren't there. But that's what we do, right? Our best work after the fact? We're the Avengers, we're the Avengers. Not the Prevengers." Tony said. "Ok." Rhodey replied. "Right?" Tony asked. "You made your point. Just sit down." Rhodey said, motioning for him to sit. "Ok." Tony said, sitting. "Nah, nah. Here's my point. You know what?" He said after exactly 0.1 second of him shutting his mouth for once. "Tony, you're sick." Rhodey interrupted. "She's great, by the way." Tony said, motioning to carol across the room and getting up. "Sit down. Sit." Rhodey said, one more word away from electromagnetising tony to the seat.

"We need you. You're new blood. Bunch of tired old mules! I got nothing for you, Cap! I got no coordinates, no clues, no strategies, no options. Zero. Zip. Nada. No trust. Liar." Tony said, walking over to Steve. "Tony sit your ass down this second or so help you god." I said, shaking my arm down so that my shield would form on my arm.Steve looked affected by Tony's words. The old friends just gaze at each other. After a moment, Tony looks straight at me and ripped his Arc Reactor from his chest and shoved it into Steve's hand. "Here, take this. You find him, and you put that on. You hide." He said before collapsing. "Tony!" Steve yelled, crouching beside him as a crowd gathered around him. "Give me the arc reactor." I said, shaking my shield back and taking the arc reactor from Steve's hand just as tony passed out. "Alright, Steve and Rhodey, help me carry him out to the medbay. I need to get this back in On the way." I said, starting the process as they picked him up.

"Keep him steady, steve you walk backwards, I need 2 minutes tops." I said, connecting the wires back to the reactor and putting the slot back into his chest.