If only (trans reader x Peter parker)

(54)

TW!!! technically this depicts suicide in the last bit. if you were triggered by nat's ending, i suggest you skip this chapter and the beginning of the next!

I heard chatter and walked over into the meeting room. "what is vormir?" nat asked, silence flooding the room as I walked in. "relax, I'm here to work and then I'm going back home with peter." I said, sitting down just across the room. "A dominion of death, at the very center of Celestial existence. It's where Thanos murdered my sister." Nebula answered finally, watching me sit. That Time Stone guy." Nat started. "Doctor Strange." Tony answered. "Yeah, what kind of doctor was he?" she asked. "Ear-nose-throat meets rabbit from a hat." Tony smirked slightly. "Nice place in the village, though." Bruce added. "Yeah. Sullivan Street." Tony agreed. "Hmm... Bleecker." "Wait, he lived in New York?" nat asked, gears turning. "No. He lived in Toronto. Were you even paying attention?" tony questioned, looking at her. "Guys, if you pick the right year, there are three stones in New York." Nat said in realisation. "Shut the front door." Bruce said, realising her right. "All right. We have a plan. Six Stones, three teams. One shot." Steve said, getting up. We followed, looking at the screen.
"Five years ago, we lost. All of us. We lost friends... We lost family... We lost a part of ourselves. Today, we have a chance to take it all back. You know your teams, you know your missions. Get the stones, get them back. One round trip each. No mistakes. No do-overs. Most of us are going somewhere we know. But it doesn't mean we should know what to expect. Be careful. Look out for each other. This is the fight of our lives. And we're gonna win. Whatever it takes. Good luck." Steve said, looking around at all of us. We had these weird, white and red suits. "All right. You heard the man. Stroke those keys, jolly green." Tony said, pointing at bruce. "Tractors engaged." Bruce called to us. "You promise to bring that back in one piece, right?" rocket said to clint, motioning to his ship in clint's hand. "Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. I'll do my best." Clint agreed. "As promises go, that was pretty lame." Rocket mumbled. "See you in a minute." Nat said as we all shrunk and went our own ways through the quantum tunnel.

I went with nat and clint to vormir. We headed off towards red skull. Something was wrong, one of us wouldn't come back from this and I knew it. They made small talk along the way, I nodded occasionally to make it seem like I was paying attention. I couldn't understand what they were saying, zoned out as we walked. I wouldnt let clint die, he had a family. I couldn't let nat die, clint would never forgive me or himself. If I sacrificed myself, I'd be leaving peter behind. It had to be me. Peter would have aunt may, he would have ned, and MJ. I'm the one who has to go.

We approached red skull at the top of the mountain. "you know what must be done, young one." He said to me as we approached. I nodded.

"y/n what's he talking about?" nat asked.


"it has to be me. You have eachother, clint has a family. Peter will survive without me. It has to be me." I said, stepping forward to red skull.

"y/n what are you on about?" clint asked.

"the soul stole, a soul for the soul. I let go, you have to bring everyone back. It's the only way." I said.

"no, I wont let you jump off a cliff for a stupid stone!" clint argued. I nodded before looking up at red skull and nodding.

He nodded in reply.

I knew what had to be done.

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"I love you two."

a/n: sorry for the long wait between chapters, school has been kicking my ass. two chapters today just for y'all!!