In Too Deep

33

I lean against the large metal table waiting for her. I tap my fingers against the surface while I fiddle with my hair. If he can't find her then i'm completely fucked because there's absolutely no way i'm letting that sketchy ass doctor search inside of me with those fucking fingers.

"Alright, alright. Enough with the manhandling im not running away" I turn around swiftly and I light up as i see a familiar face.

I squeal and tackle her in a hug.

"You don't know how good it feels to see you" I say with the biggest smile on my face. I pull back to see her go through a few emotions telling by the looks on her face.

"I—what are you—Harleen?" she studied my face but then holds me at a distance as she takes in my entire appearance.

"In the flesh" I give her a small smile.

"Love your hair, it's really grown out since last month. Nothing looks better than your fro-"

"The whole city.....you know, they're looking for you right?" she says to me and her face drops as she notices something, or should I say someone, behind me. I feel his hand touch my shoulder and I do everything to not lean into his touch.

"Afternoon Doc. I gotta say, you're a lot more difficult to persuade then most" Jack says. Her face doesn't hide the utter disgust in him.

"Is everything alright?" she asks intently and I nod. Her eyes sending me messages that she'd be down to kill everyone if it meant setting me free.

"We have a proposition for you" her eyes flitter between the two of us. She begins to shake her head and slowly tries backing up.

"I have a proposition for you" I grab her hand and hold it to my chest so her focus is mainly on me.

"I need you to continue to be doctor. I promise I'll make it worth your while" I plead and she swallows thickly.

"Doctor in?"

"In all things relating to me. I need tests to be run on me, monthly check ups. You know, the usual but a little more attention. I need you to be on call. If anything happens I need you at all moments" she stares at me for a minute before shaking her head.

"I can't Harleen. I can't take money from a man who has terrorized this city more times than I can count on my hand—" I fall to the floor, her hand still in my grip.

"Please? Think about it. He has a doctor but I just don't trust his grimey hands to give me monthly physicals and tests. I'd feel so much better under your care" I look up at her.

"Please"

"Get up" she says with a pull.

"I'll do it under one condition" I nod.

"My rules and my rules only. Whatever I say, goes. And keep that clown away from me as much as possible" I nod happily and give her another hug.

"Thank you" I say and she hugs me back.

✯

"Few things to start off-" she looks over at Frost who stands in entrance of the room.

"I can't work here. This room is...filthy, unsanitary. Can't imagine what kind of bacteria lives on the floor let alone the tables and the walls. The medication on the wall looks quite dirty too. I wouldn't trust it if I was you" She taps on the glass cabinet shielding all of the jars.

"She's wanted by GPD. I can't risk her going out in broad daylight anymore" he states and she nods.

"I own the office so she'll swing by after hours" she says as she opens the cabinet and stifles through.

"She's had one episode since the escape. And she has this odd reaction to the ringing phones make when receiving calls" she turns to me with concern and shuts the cabinet.

"An episode..?"

"It's not like that. Hasn't been like that in a very long time and you know it" I assure her, already anticipating her lecture.

"Did you stop going to him?" she ignores my protests and asks me directly.

I scratch the back of my head and without me having to say a word she gets the gist.

"God dammit Harley" she sighs and rolls her eyes.

"What was this 'episode' like?" her eyes aren't directed towards me but to Frost.

"She ran out of the hair salon when she began to wash her hair at the sink. When I got to her outside she kept saying she couldn't breathe-"

"You had a panic attack. A fucking panic attack?!" she asks me as I bite the inside of my cheek. I feel like a child who's just been caught doing something she wasn't supposed to do.

"It wasn't that severe-"

"It wasn't that severe? Harley, you couldn't breathe" I pick at the skin around my nail.

"You're going back to him" I shake my head and walk around the room.

"Mm, no, I can't" I chuckle. She looks at me with confusion.

"What do you mean 'you can't'. Does it sound like i'm speaking a foreign language to you? This is your mental health we're talking about. How am I supposed to give you the free light that you're well physically but not mentally if you don't go and speak to him?" she asks and I smile.

"I fucked him. Okay? I can't go back because I fucked him" I spill and she's in shock so of course i go further into detail.

"He fucked my brains out while our sessions were in process! He literally would fuck the information out of me" I tell her.

"God, Harley. Why?" she asks me.

"Because he was the only person who gave a shit about me, okay? He was sweet, and-and kind to me through everything—"

"My dentist gives a shit about me! Doesn't mean I suck his dick before my appointment" she says and I nod, waving her off.

"I get it. I fucked up, okay? Real bad" I bite the inside of my lip nervously. I double over the table and dig my hands into my hair.

"I'll be free next week on monday. I expect you both to be there in the evening, let's say 8-" she says the next part more quietly, aiming for Frost's ears only.

"Don't let her exert herself into another episode" and with that she leaves us in the room.

I look over my shoulder to see him standing with his arms crossed.

"What do I tell the boss?" he asks and I groan.

"Nothing that'll get me in trouble" I hear him scoff and I turn fully towards him and join my hands together. I plead with all my heart I even consider dropping down to my knees.

"Please Johnny, im begging you—" I drop my hands to my sides and straighten up as Jack walks in.

"What'd she say?" he asks Frost. I swallow and look up to the man who towers over me. His eyes cast down to me and he keeps contact with me.

"She agreed to do the exams on her, next week at 8 in her office" I look back to Jack and he nods. He signals for me to come over with his head and as soon as i'm within grabbing distance he circles his arm around my waist. We walk out and I look back at Frost.

'Thank you' I mouth and he nods curtly.

Well, that's one less thing to worry about.