In Too Deep

39

"Nervous?" Johnny asks me and I look over at him. I shake my head and look back on the road.

"Sure about that?" he asks and I nod my head, not looking at him this time.

"You keep bouncing your legs and it's pissing me off" I stop my actions and resort to biting my finger nails instead.

My phone vibrates in my pocket and I fish it out to see a text from Jack.

Won't be home till later tonight. Text me when you're finished.

I text him back assuring him that I will before locking it and going back to my nasty habit.

"You got a smoke?" He nods and opens the glove compartment.

His phone rings and he answers.

"Amazing" I grab the pack and take one into my mouth before lighting it up. As soon as I inhale the first take I can feel my whole body begin to relax.

"How much?" he asks.

"Well, can't say I'm surprised. Although I'm curious how you're going to get yourself outta this one" he adds on.

"Later" he hangs up.

"Who was that?" I ask, already having a feeling it was Jack.

"The boss"

"What'd he say?"

"Nothing you need to know" I sit back knowing that if Johnny doesn't to tell me something he won't. I continue to smoke it until we arrive at the building.

Johnny parks the car towards the back of the tall building. I get out of the car and wait for him to do the same before approaching the back entry.

Once were in I guide him to the elevator and we wait patiently. I press the floor button but hold it open as I see a pregnant women waddle her way over to us.

She smiles and thanks me before pressing the same floor button as me. I can't help but stare at the swollen area. She takes notice and chuckles.

"Would you like to feel?" she asks sweetly and I can't find the words to say no. She grabs my wrist and places it onto the top of her belly. This unfamiliar feeling sets in my chest and I swallow to make it go away.

"How far along?" I ask.

"I'm in my third trimester. Month to go and he'll be ready to burst" she smiles and I can't help but smile along with her.

We reach the floor and I remove my hand from her.

"Have a good day" she tells me and takes a left.

"You too" I say to her before taking a right. We both walk silently towards her office and I turn the knob and walk in. Not a soul in sight not even her secretary.

"Angela?" I say into the room waiting for an answer. Not a few moments later I see her walk out of the back room.

"Come on" she says and we both follow behind her.

"You stay out here. I don't care who you work for, but she still needs privacy" she says to Johnny and I give him a smile. I pat him on the shoulder and he stands guard in front of the room as we disappear into the office.

She proceeds to do my regular routine check-ups, checking my blood pressure, shining light into my ears and eyes, and checking my heart rate.

"Everything seems to be good. Nothing monumental. But I have to ask, are you sexually active?" I nod.

"Are you on the pill?" I shake my head. She sighs.

"Condoms?" I scrunch up my nose and she groans.

"What is the first things that they teach you in health class Harleen?" she scolds me.

"To always use condoms, but it's so hard when you're in the moment and—" she raises her hand.

"How many times?" I bite the inside of my lip.

"I've lost count" I can see her patience wearing thinner.

"When's the last time you had your period" and at that I freeze. Fuck.

"A month ago" she leaves the room without a word, pushing poor Johnny out of the way.

She comes back with a cup and two vials.

"Fill all of these with urine. I need to test you for pregnancy and STD's. I also need to do a few blood tests to make sure everything is alright internally" I nod and she hands me the cups and vials.

I leave the room more nervous then I was going in. I walk towards the bathroom and lock myself inside. Shakily I place the vials and cup on the sink counter and knock one of them over. I let a shaky breath and look up into the mirror to stare at my reflection.

My skin is still a sickly looking white, under this light I look slightly more yellow than usual. My hair is better but still dryer than the Sahara dessert.

I grab the fallen vial and place it on the counter. I do my business and pour some of my pee into the vials. After closing them all up I open the faucet and wash my hands with cold water before splashing some on my face.

I walk back to the office and hand her the items. She takes them into a separate room and I sit on the table patiently.

Frost looks in and I catch his gaze.

"I'm alright" I give him a tight smile and he nods. I pull out my phone to busy myself for a few minutes while she tests to me.

She comes back but I can't exactly decipher if she's happy or not. I bite the edges of my fingers.

"What'd they say?" I ask as she closes the door behind her. My heart is beating out of my chest and I could throw up if I really wanted to.

"Negative" a wave of relief falls over me and I let out a deep breath.

"All negative?" I smile and she nods but she's not content.

"What's the issue then? What's with your face?" I ask and she shakes her head.

"You're period is late" I shrug.

"It happens, it's nothing to worry about it should be here soon" I assure her but again she shakes her head.

"You've had multiple instances of unprotected sexual intercourse" I shrug still not following.

"Harley has he....finished...inside of you?" I nod slowly and try to swallow the lump building in my throat. She writes something down on a piece of paper. And another on a smaller notepad.

"You have to come back during the day for a blood sample" She hands my both papers and I read them. One being a prescription for some pills and another for blood tests.

"In this same building? I can't do day times doc, you know that"

"It's a must Harleen. It's the only way to know" my eyebrows furrow.

"To know what?" She pats my leg before opening the door.

"I don't care how you do it but she needs to come back during the day" she tells Frost and I walk towards the two.

"Fine. Tomorrow" he looks at me and I nod.

"Thank you" I say to her and hug the woman.

"I'll call you as soon as I get those results, what's your number?" I give her my information and we walk down to the car.

We sit in silence for sometime until the funhouse and the mill are in clear view.

"Everything alright?" he asks me and I look at him for the first time since i've been in this car.

"Not one bit"