Storm Of Yesterday (On Going)

Little Girl

Chapter 2

Little girl

There have been days where i thought i was all okay, I'd moved on from all the pain and I don't care anymore if someone brings up the topic about what we had...

It's fine though, there will be days that you thought you are already moved on but you aren't still. There will be days you'll miss him, there will be days you will reminisce and realize how happy you were two back then but you have to remind yourself that it's over. You can't bring back what's gone.

Kaya if someone asked me if pain changes people? I could say yes.

Why?

I can say I've gone through a lot at an early age, and i know there are a lot of things to come pa. I've gone through a lot of challenges in life na nabreak ang heart ko to the point na i became in distant with people I used to hang out with, cry just to fall asleep, be alone to listen with my own thoughts, cry every night for how many months just to hope na sana maubusan na ako ng luha someday. But it's all worth it, I may not became the best person but I became better. I now know what is the best for me and what are the things that won't benefit me. I've learned so many things such as letting go of the people who aren't good for me or toxic to me and letting go of fake friends. I no longer force things to happen because if it's meant to be it'll be. That's why i am very much sure that pain changes people. Sa iba it could make them worse but for me, i became better.

Before I've come to realize this texts... I have attempted to love someone again. It was Gabriel whom I've fallen inlove again. Hindi na ako nadala.

After months of being out of John's i became close with Gabriel. He became my human diary. I open up to him about the things in my mind at kahit siya. May girlfriend siya nung time na yun and wala rin akong feelings sakanya nung mga time na yun. He open up whenever he has a problem in life or a problem between him and his girlfriend. I always help him to think about solutions to fix what's in between them because he really does love his girlfriend.

Lagi kaming naguusap about random things we are most interested about lalo na parehas kami ng mga gustong Artists sa music at genre. Nagkakasundo kami mag usap about those things. Kahit sa view in life and love parehas kami that's why sobrang naging close kami. We always assume that we are siblings kasi wala siyang kapatid, he's an only child so he craves for someone's company always. I call him kuya while he treats me like his baby sister.

Ang isat isa ang takbuhan namin kapag malungkot at malupit ang buhay.

"Bakit kailangan niya mag sinungaling saakin, Athena? Bakit siya nag cheat? Hindi ba ako enough?" tanong ni Gabriel saakin ng nag break sila ng girlfriend niya.

"I don't know, kuya. I don't know the reason behind her doing that. But all i know is, it is wrong to do that while you are in a relationship. You don't just think of yourself, you have to consider your partner always."

"That's right. Kaya sayo ako nagoopen parehas tayo ng perspective at opinyon." rinig ko parin ang lungkot at pait sa boses niya.

"And if you truly love someone, you won't do something that will hurt them. That will make them question your love and worth to them." i added.

"I just don't get it. Why do cheaters, cheat? why can't they be contented of what they have. Am i not enough?" tanong niya muli.

"You are more than enough, Gabriel."

Napatingin siya ng sinabi ko iyon at napatingin rin ako sakanya ngunit iniwas niya ang malalim at malungkot niyang mga mata saakin.

"Thank you, Athena."

Habang tumatagal mas lalo naming naging sandalan ang isat isa. We were both broken because of giving our all in love, for trusting too much, and for believing so much to someone.

We always understand each other even before, mas lalo lang ngayon dahil parehas kaming gustong sumaya at makalimot sa sakit. I understand him so much because I've been broken too many times.

Months have passed by... I never thought he'll confess something to me via phone.

"Hello..." bati niya sa kabilang linya na para bang may mabigat na iniisip.

"Hi!" replied with my usual energy towards him.

"I have something to tell you..."

Pag ganito talaga kinakabahan ako eh. Ano naman kaya sasabihin nito? Akala mo naman nakapatay siya ng langgam na may pamilya bakit naman ang lungkot at nangagamba ang boses nito.

"What is it? You sounds like you murdered an ant in your house." sabay halakhak.

He chuckled and replied, "That's why I love you..."

Tumigil ako sa pag tawa dahil sa narinig. Hindi niya pa ako kailanman sinabihan ng ganiyan. Nanlaki ang aking mga mata sa kabilang linya at napa letter O ang aking labi.

"Uh, what did you meant by that, kuya?" after a few seconds of not responding.

"Oh, you little girl stop calling me kuya!" he chuckled again. "I said I love you, little girl."

"Oh i see, you love me as your baby sister." sabay tawa dahil nagkamali naman pala ako.

He didn't respond after a few seconds.

"Hey, you still there?" i asked.

"I said I love you little girl." he repeated.

"I am confused, I can get you." i sounded really, really confused.

"I love you baby..."

"But we can't... no... I mean it's not p-possible... That's no way—"

"Shh, just love me back." he said after cutting me off.

"But you are my kuya, we can't be. Siblings don't do that. No, Gabriel. No, kuya." i replied sounding like rejecting him.

"Ouch, little girl. Then, we aren't siblings anymore. You'll be mine now."

"Stop calling me little girl! You haven't moved on yet. Stop joking it's not funny."

"I'd moved on, baby. Believe me, I love you...I have fallen in love with you." said with a voice of convincing me to believe him.

"But why... But how... Omg! You're freaking me out, Gabriel!" i sounded like a very confused cry baby.

I heard a bark of laughter.

"Ohh what now... What's funny?! I hate you." tunog pag tatampo.

"Ouch, so that's what i received after saying I love you. C'mon baby where's my reply to that?"

"I can't believe in this."

After a lot of days of persuading me and making me believe in him that what he said was true... And after answering my hows and whys that's been bugging me after he confessed his feelings for me i finally gave in.

I realized that i have feelings for him, that i was just covering it up and respecting him because he just came from a breakup. And i was just in denial because i am afraid that this will eventually end. That it'll be one sided. I treasure him so much and the friendship that we have that's why i am afraid that I'll loose him with this. We'll loose each other and I can't buy that.

I was also afraid to take risk and get the same or more pain because of love. But love always wins.

"I love you, Athena..." he said looking into my hazel brown eyes.

"I love you too...Gabriel." i replied and then i hugged him.

I love him like there was no tomorrow. I love him like I've never been hurted and left behind. I loved him like the storm of yesterday never really existed.