Storm Of Yesterday (On Going)

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Chapter 16

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For some reasons, i always look forward on going home and after class... i don't know why.

Hmm, maybe because i could get to spend my time with him...

Maybe i like him?

No!

Look, Athena... You aren't yet sure if you are really over with Gabriel. Your heartbeat keeps on raising whenever he's near you, you feel uneasy and sometimes you lose you rational thoughts. So hindi pwedeng gusto mo si Shaun! You can't hit two birds with one stone.

Hindi pwedeng gusto mo yung isa, gusto mo rin yung isa. My gosh! This is stressing me out.

But am i liking Shaun? Is it possible to like two persons at a time? Pero panigurado namang may mas matimbang hindi ba? Pero... pano kung yung mas matimbang hindi na pwede at hindi na dapat? Pano iyon?

"Glen?" i called my seatmate.

"Yes? Bakit?" she turned to me.

Nasa cafeteria kami ngayong umaga at ito na kagad ang bumabagabag saakin. Hindi ko alam! Pag gising ko at habang bumabyahe ako papunta dito sa school ay ito na ang laman ng aking isipan.

"Is it possible for a person to like two persons at a time?" i bite my lip because of my stupid inquiry.

"Of course it is possible but hindi pwedeng parehas. I mean... may mas matimbang." paliwanag niya.

"Iyan din opinyon ko. Pero anong gagawin mo if ever nagkaron ka ng gustong dalawa?" tanong ko pa.

"If i am holding them both, i must set the other one free. I must choose... kahit may masasaktan. Pero you have to be wise. Ayaw mo naman maging unfair sakanila at maging sa sarili mo." sabi niya. "Kaya kailangan mo talagang mamili, kasi the longer you cling to them the more damage you will cause because of keeping them both." sabi niya at nagtaas ng kilay.

"Are you liking somebody else while you haven't still moved on from Gabriel?" she concluded.

I hush her because someone might hear her. Hindi magandang pakinggan iyon.

I bit my lower lip again. "Uh..." i hesitantly looked for words but i can't find any words to say.

"Shaun and Gabriel, are classmates, they were friends before... Mahirap yan, Athena. Mahirap yan." she warned.

"I know... it's foolish of me... my heart has to choose." i said looking down dahil sa kahihiyan.

"You have to choose because you might lose them both." she warned again.

"I lost Gabriel already..." i said.

"That's the point! You lost him already so you have to let go of him and the past you two once shared. Hindi na kayo pwede kaya why do you still include him in your choices?"

"Because i am still confused if i am really over him. I can't get him out of my mind." i sigh. "Nalilito ako kung patitigilin ko ba si Shaun dahil baka si Gabriel pa rin. Pero natatakot ako na kapag pinili ko si Gabriel na alam kong wala na ay ikukulong ko lang ang sarili ko sa nakaraan namin." dagdag ko pa.

"Natatakot ako na kapag pinili ko ang isa sa kanila ay magkamali ako. Paano kung si Gabriel pala talaga? Pinapaasa ko lang pala si Shaun? What if i am just liking the concept that someone out there likes me and gives so much efforts just to have me and keep me? Paano kung wala naman pala talaga. I am still indulged from the past Gabriel and I had... " dagdag ko pa dahil pakiramdam ko hindi magsasalita si Glen dahil interisado pa siya sa mga sasabihin ko.