Today I'm feeling very invisible.
All my friends are dating and have no time for me, and if they did, I don't have the type of life where I can just drop whatever and go hang out
So everytime I say no, sorry I can't and make up some random excuse, we get further apart.
I have more responsibilities than I have free time, I never really got to be a kid. I try to embrace the moments where I can act like a kid because that's what keeps me sane.
But it's okay because I have my family, more like I have my aunt, my ride or die.
Sometimes I feel like I cannot be seen, like a ghost, maybe of who I used to be, or maybe who I want to be
Most days I have no clue.
I'm loving high school but I wish I could go back to when all my friends hung out, go to before everything changed.
It's literally a while new world. Sometimes I'm afraid I might not make it in this world
Like maybe this is not my world
But then other days everything is fine and I'm so happy. But that can't be everyday
I'm almost to the point where the good days outweigh the bad days... almost
-JT
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Randomrandom thoughts from my depressed suicidal brain This is my way of coping. I'm learning to rant on wattpad instead of cut, binge purge...etc. Also, most of the time when I'm writing this stuff I'm upset and have no regard for spelling and grammar ch...
