I was ignoring you before because I didn't know how to respond. To be honest our conversations feel artificial and forced. There's a lot of mean things I want to say but I don't because I don't want to be that person. But at the same time I want to hurt you. I want your heart to break like you broke mine. It's so easy to for you to just pretend like nothing happened but it did. You abandoned me, do you realize that? You left me when you are supposed to protect me. How do I just pretend like that didn't happen. Whatever little hope I had left for us is gone. Do you remember that time when you slapped me across the face? Because I do. That is something I will NEVER forget. Thinking about that day keeps me up at night. Do you know how many times I cried wondering why I was not good enough. I was so terrible that I drove you away. But guess what I realized? It's not my fault. It's you. You are a crappy person and that is not my fault. What kind of father abandons their daughter? Oh I know, a bad one. Before you left I used to tell you that you aren't a bad father but that's not true anymore. A dark part of me still hates you but I have to let it go. Not for you, but for me. Because I'm not some immature little girl anymore. But you wouldn't know that would you? You don't know me, you dont know anything about me. But I guess it goes both ways, I thought I knew you but I had no idea who you really were.
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Randomrandom thoughts from my depressed suicidal brain This is my way of coping. I'm learning to rant on wattpad instead of cut, binge purge...etc. Also, most of the time when I'm writing this stuff I'm upset and have no regard for spelling and grammar ch...
