Thorns in the Heart

Blur Called Finals

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The next couple of weeks have been a blur. Finals have been insane and I've had so many papers that I needed to write before I was able to go home for Christmas vacation. As the end of the semester was coming Ember, Kamilla, Nick, and I have been in the library all the time studying and doing homework.

"Can you believe it is almost Christmas break," Nick questions while sitting in our normal spot at the library.

"I can't. But I sure am excited to go home," Ember says.

"Oh we know," I laugh.

"What!? Aren't you," she questions.

"Of course I am! I get to see my family and Ash."

"Yeah Ash," Nick says rolling his eyes. Everytime I mention Ash's name Nick gets this angry demeanor. Most times he repeats his name with distaste. Or he rolls his eyes and sometimes he gets up to pace or walk away.

"Yeah, he is my boyfriend." I am starting to get frustrated with the way that he acts when Ash is mentioned. At least Ember and Kamilla are honest and tell me that they don't like him. Nick just acts like a jerk.

"I know, everyone here knows you two are together." He says rolling his eyes.

"What is up with you? You have been acting like a jerk ever since you found out." I say finally done with the way he has been treating me.

"I have a problem with Ash. He treats you like shit and you just allow it. I am your friend and I care about you and he clearly does not. He manipulates you into thinking he loves you. He sends you songs so that you will fall in love with the words. He knows your love language is affirming words and he uses that to keep you wrapped around his little finger."

"I am so done with everyone hating Ash. This is my decision and I can't keep letting you talk shit when you don't know anything about our relationship."

"I'm sorry. I just care for you and I know you deserve to be treated like a princess."

"Now who is taking advantage of knowing my love language," I question.

"The difference is I speak truth and he doesn't," he says with a small smile. "Will you please forgive me I just care about you and thought you needed to hear my opinion."

"Of course. Please just be supportive. If he isn't for me then I need to figure that out on my own."

"Yes, this is true. Just know if things go wrong we are here for you." Kamilla says just joining in on the conversation.

"Thank you, that is what I need."

After changing the topic to something less heavy we laughed and finished our homework. By the time it was one in the morning we decided that if we stayed up any longer we would not be getting any good grades because we are sleep deprived. Nick walked us back to our dorm and then left for the night.

"Thank you for being a good friend. I'm sorry I got mad earlier." I say turning to Nick before he walks away.

"It's no problem. You deserve the world Xori. I wish you would see that." He says kissing my forehead then walking away.

I stand there watching him walk away. I am so confused. Why did he kiss my forehead? Do friends do that? Why is Ember always making comments that sounds like he likes me? I don't know how long I stand there watching the empty space where he once was. Kamilla opens the door and waves her hand in my face.

"What are you doing out here?"

"Just thinking. I'm so confused."

"What happened?"