Thorns in the Heart

Happy Thanksgiving

A/N This chapter is dedicated to @houseofmirrors check out her story it is amazing!!! 

Right now I am waiting for Ash to pick me up. He said he would pick me up in an hour, about 3 hours ago. I haven't gotten a single text or call to tell me what is going on. I'm having a battle in my mind. Part of me hopes that something happened and that he's not blowing me off. But, another part hopes nothing bad happened to him or his family. I want to call and check on him but I don't want to be that girl that is always checking up on him. But I also don't want to be walked all over.

I just don't get it. Is he still mad at me about forgetting about him and he is trying to give me some payback? Forgetting about our date because I forgot he was on the phone? Just when I was about to call it a night and go to bed and give up hope that he was going to come over or call; my phone starts ringing. It was him. Just let it ring. Don't answer. But, I couldn't just let it go to voicemail because that's not who I am.

Don't show him you're upset.

"Hello," I answer.

"What's up, babe?"

What the fuck!? What's up!? I've been waiting for almost four hours to go out and he asks what's up. Don't blow up. Don't blow up.

"Nothing. I'm going to bed."

"Why? It's only 8:30."

"It has been a disappointing day and I have a long day tomorrow to help with Thanksgiving dinner."

"Oh, I thought we could talk a little," he says sounding disappointed.

"We could have talked if..." I cut myself off, "you know what never mind. It doesn't matter."

"No! If what?"

"If you came to get me like you said you would. But instead, I was stuck waiting around for you to show up for almost four hours!" I yell into the phone.

"Oh fuck!"

"Oh, fuck is right! Goodnight Ash!" I yell as I hang up the phone and turn it onto do not disturb. I plug my phone in and try to lay in bed and ignore all the thought swarming around in my brain. Did he really forget? What was he doing? Was everyone right about him? Will he always be a screw-up? All my friends are going to say I told you so. I turn on a movie to help drown out my thoughts so I can get some sleep so I can enjoy my Thanksgiving with my family.

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I didn't sleep well at all. I was so mad at Ash so I stayed up all night watching Criminal Minds. I have seen every episode 10 times each. I just love Morgan and how he is with Garcia. He treats her like a queen even though they are just friends. Imagine how he treats his wife. I went to my bathroom to look at my phone. I put it in there last night when I didn't want to look at my phone and see all the missed calls and texts from Ash. He doesn't know when to quit.

I got my phone and noticed 30 missed calls and 235 texts. All messages consist of the same content.

I'm sorry

Please let me explain

Babe, I'm really sorry.

Blah blah blah. I've heard this all before. He's always sorry for a stupid mistake. Then I forgive him and then we go around in this stupid circle over and over again. But why can't I let him go? It seems like it would be so easy to just let him go and move on but something keeps me tied to him. Ring, ring, ring! It's him... again!

"What do you want Ash."

"Please just let me explain," he pleads.

"You have one minute. Starting now."