Thorns in the Heart

Say Goodbye

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It has been a month since I had my last encounter with Ash. There were so many concerned people that came knocking on our door in the weeks after he stopped by. The RA Nicole would check on me often to make sure I felt safe. I would tell her I was fine and not scared because he probably went back to New York. She assured me that if I needed we could go to campus security and let them know the situation and give his picture so they will not let him on campus. I tried to convince her that I was okay and that we do not need to do that but I don't know if I was trying to convince her or myself. If I am being completely honest I feel so terrified and unsafe. He has not made any moves to keep his promise but I know if I start to let my guard down; he will show up. My friends all seem concerned for me. They never leave my side unless they have class. Nick has many classes with me so this is good and bad at the same time. I am so scared to be alone but I also don't want to be a burden. Which is definitely how I feel. They also seem scared for me. They are constantly checking to see how I am. Which I understand but it's getting to a point that I feel like if this goes on much longer my friends will leave because I am so needy.

Nick has been so great since we have classes together he walks me to each class and at the end of the day he walks me home. And until one of my roommates comes home he stays with me as we either do homework or watch tv. He is such an amazing guy. I don't know how I became so lucky to have a friend like him. I haven't done anything to deserve such good friends who care about me and my safety.

Right now Nick and I are sitting in my living room watching Criminal Minds. I know what you're thinking... really Criminal Minds after all that is going on? To be honest I love this show and it can be really relaxing. Being in a place of constant fear it is nice to know that there are people out there that care enough to search for the perps who commit heinous crimes. It gives me comfort to know that if anything were to happen to me there will be someone out there figuring out who did that to me. Although it is going to be easy to know who committed that crime. There are so many witnesses that will be able to tell the police that I have a crazy ex boyfriend who threatened me.

The door to our room started to open and I jumped into Nick's lap."Xo, it's okay it's just Kamilla coming back from class," he reassures me while rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry Xo, I didn't mean to scare you!" she says rushing to me to give me a comforting hug. After she wraps me in her embrace I burst into tears.

"I'm so sorry. You guys shouldn't have to walk on eggshells in your own house. You shouldn't have to worry about me; and walking me to class and being with me all the time. You guys should be able to live your lives and not have to take care of me," I sob into her shoulder.

"It's okay these are special circumstances. We are your friends and we care for you. We don't like that you are terrified all the time. You are walking on eggshells! You don't feel safe to even leave your room without someone being with you. I think that you should consider calling the police. It has been a month and you are scared out of your ever-loving mind," Nick says.

"I can't call the police. Like you said it has been a month and we have not seen or heard from him. They can't do anything about that. And you should know that because we have been watching Criminal Minds together!"

"You never know, they might be able to do something."

"I doubt it," I say as I look at my feet. I can't keep living like this. I need to do something. It has been a month which is a good thing. Maybe he did go back to New York. "Guys I'll be okay. I don't need bodyguards any more. It has been a month and we have not heard or seen him. I need to take a walk. I need to do this alone."