One Shot Compilations || camren

I'm In Love with My Best Friend

We have really been great friends for as long as I can remember. Through the years we have shared many memories together, ups and downs, we've shed so many tears together and we've laughed so hard at the many mistakes that we've done.

But for the last few months I have been feeling something strange, something new when I'm around her.

It's not like something I've felt before whenever I'm around Lauren. I mean it's not my fault that she's just so damn up her game.

You see every time we spend time together she does these weird things that you would only expect couples do. Like I'd do something stupid and she'll just stand there saying; "wait. hold up. stay right there." Then she'll run up to her purse to grab her Polaroid and takes a shot of whatever it is I'm doing. I mean you wouldn't do that if you didn't want to preserve precious memories of a particular person or feel something for them, right?

Lauren is just so unbelievably outstanding. It's just that she makes me feel the way music does. She gives me that feeling of safety, I feel secure around her, I feel as if she and I complete each other's missing piece.

Every time I'm around her or talk to her over the phone, she makes the swarm of butterflies in my stomach come to life. She knows how to get me, how to make me feel better about myself. She taught me how to live my life in the best possible way.

She's literally been my rock through those tough times that I had, the time where I wanted to end it all. Lauren was there, making sure that everything will be fine, she was my shoulder to cry on, she was that one person who was willing to listen to my problems. We'd stay up late at night talking about the things that bothered us in life and the things that makes us happy.

When I got really drunk and ended up throwing up all over the place, she was there to hold my hair back and laughed at how stupid I was thinking I could handle all those liquor.

She's there during the nights when I couldn't sleep, she was there to witness my first love, first heartbreak. We've been there together. I had to see her fall in love with someone, she had to see me fall in love with someone and some of them nearly got in between our friendship.

We've had those arguments where we literally did not speak to each other for a whole month, only to realise that we both made a stupid mistake and made up soon after.

She's my life and I don't want to face a life where I've never known this amazing and beautiful master piece.

Although, I grew up in a normal family, mum, dad and sister, I later on realised that I'm not like them. It's quite scary at first but I managed to accept the fact that being normal is not for me. Now that I have realised that, I cannot stop thinking about how slowly I am falling for her, for Lauren. I'm terrified to know that my choices might damage those wonderful years that I spent with her, as the very best of friends.

What's weird is that, they say that what you write reflects on the life that you want that to happen in the real world and I do believe that now. I write in my journal everything that happened through the years of being friends with Lauren, all the places we've been to and the lazy days that we've spent in each other's house. Even the things that I wish I could do with her soon.

She keeps me on track, she keeps me warm and being around her feels like home.

Today will be our anniversary as best friends, at first I found it really unnecessary to celebrate these kind of things with her just because we're just friends so what's the point? Eventually it grew on me and now I cannot wait to spend this special day with her and just her.

We will be meeting each other up at the beach before sunset for the annual celebration of our friendship.

I know that I've done this like a million times in my life but tonight, I feel somewhat nervous about this. I'm not entirely sure why but it's there.

"Hey Camz!" Lauren shouted from the far end of the car park.

"Lo!" I shouted back, waving my hand up in the air.

She came running towards my direction and hugged me tightly once she reached the spot where I'm standing. Nearly knocking me over and on the sand.

That hug, it may seem like such a small act but I surely don't want to let her go and I don't want her to let go of me.

"You ready?' Lauren asked excitedly, once she separated the tow of us.

"Let's go." I linked my arms up with her and started skipping my way to the restaurant on the beach.

We had a special dinner kind of thing, a bit too romantic for two friends but it was really special.

After the dinner, we soon walked out of the restaurant and took a long walk on the beach under the light of the stars and the moon and the sound of the ocean waves.

I'm battling with myself right now on whether or not I should confess to her about my feelings or not. She just kept on talking and I listened to her, a smile plastered on her face that reaches from one ear to another.

"Hey, Lauren." I started, once she finished talking.

"Yeah Camz?" She turned her attention back to me.

"Thanks for tonight." I smiled, "I really enjoyed every single moment of it."

"It's nothing, thank you too." She smiled back and stopping in the middle of our walk.

"What's wrong?" I asked her, stopping in front of her and looking directly into her eyes.

She didn't say anything instead she grabbed hold of my waist and locked our lips together. I was shocked and taken off my feet at the same time but that was it, that was the moment.

She lingered there for a while before she started deepening the kiss. I obviously did not want to waste time and let her explore my mouth. I gently sucking on her bottom lip, before we separated due to the lack of air in our lungs.

None of us said a thing after but smiled and looked into each other's eyes deeply.

"I love you Camz, not as a friend but something more than that." Lauren whispered after a long silence between us two.

"I love you too, Lauren." I smiled and bit my bottom lip. Hearing those words come out of Lauren's lips just made me feel so alive.

This is something that I will keep with me forever.