I wonder
If I were to disappear
Fade into the black
Evaporate into the storm clouds
Would you miss me?
My heart and hopes are sinking
Down into the dark waters
Melting through the creaky floorboards
Beginning to freeze from void of warmth
What am I feeling?
When it's past midnight
Rain continuing to patter against my window
With no one else there but my shadow
Nobody but the lonely
How could this be?
Differences and similarities
So close yet so far
Reach out and tell me
Say something
For how could I go on?
This stormy turmoil in my chest
The thunder in my stomach
Am I nothing but a storm-cloud
Full of never ending rain?
When will spring grace this barren soul
Envelope me with the innocence
Of the child I used to be?
When will I be bewildered by light
By love and fate
Of all the things I once thought untouchable?
If only decadence remains
For this desolate being
Perhaps that's all I have to expect
From life and love and fate.
With every breath I take
And every cell I ignite
How can I even call myself whole
With only impalpable hopes
And caverns of nothingness
To call my own heart?
How could I expect-deserve-to be loved
When all I have to give is myself
My heart and my soul
All of everything that is me?
This shell of someone
Who once had hopes and dreams
Through everything believed in dawn
Is now faded into nothing but a corpse
A grey and crumbled dust
That was once ivory
But perhaps through all that
I wonder
If you could still love such a wretched me
Though I might cause you pain
All I want to do is make you smile
So maybe we could make peace
With those demons that eat away my faith
Could you be the angel to light the way
To care through it all
Forgive the horrid mistakes I've made
Help me find every shattered piece of me
And despite their sharp edges
Love them all?
What would it be like do you think
If we could be everything
Or maybe that everything would be nothing
To what we are for one another?
I wonder
What would you do if I said
"I love you with every piece of me"
Because their are so many pieces
I can't even begin to count them
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Dark Poetry
PoetryThis is a collection of my venting/darker poetry. Some may contain triggering material or swear words, so here's a warning for that. I'll post a new poem whenever I can! Feedback is always welcome! Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoy.
