I think it's happening again
Those fears are settling beneath my skin
What a long time it's been since they've come
I can't breathe anymore, I can't even scream
That little voice has returned
And she won't stop whispering
I feel sick, what is this?
It seems the light is fading away
The water is rising again, perhaps
The terror and darkness is filling my lungs
Why won't anyone save me?
Can't you see that I'm drowning -
In the angry sea of my greatest phobias?
"What if you leave - what if you got bored -
What if you get too scared -
What if I'm not enough?"
"Why can't I be better -
Why wasn't I enough -
Why am I so fucking alone -
Why don't I believe in forever when you're the only one who's meant it?"
"Failure, failure, failure"
"What a disappointment you are"
Please just make it stop
I need this pain to end
My brain is like radio static
Nothing but everything at once.
Lie here with me and hold me
Stay until the end -
Because darling I'm tired of goodbyes.
I'm falling to pieces here in the dark
Wishing I could give in
But afraid of hurting you if I do
I'm so scared, make it stop
This noise is sickening
Help me through the night
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Dark Poetry
PoetryThis is a collection of my venting/darker poetry. Some may contain triggering material or swear words, so here's a warning for that. I'll post a new poem whenever I can! Feedback is always welcome! Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoy.
