Covered Eyes (No Name Levi X Eren)

Chapter 30 ~ Vulnerable

I rent us a private jet for the flight, it's just the six of us and Erwin. Apparently he's a licensed pilot, because he has a lot of time on his hands. He says it was in case we ever decided to go overseas to tour; he wanted to be able to take over if things went south. Guess he worries about us (wouldn't want us going down like Richie Valens and Buddy Holly did). Mike sits in the cockpit with the blonde, the door closed. Every now and then we can hear the two of them erupt in laughter. Both have deep yet lively laughs, and both make me really happy for them, as if they never laughed and so the sound is refreshing. The Kyojins and Hanji are all in a huge cuddle pile in one of the beds, fast asleep and probably drooling all over each other. Ladies, Gentlemen and Charming NBs, I give you my security crew, looking like five-year-olds at nap time with their older sibling, who doesn't look as cute.

Eren and I are also cuddled up, but on a different bed. He rambles on about fun memories he has, doing his best to keep the conversation light. Unfortunately it does turn dark as something reminds him of the reason he's not with his family now. Quickly I move so that I'm hovering over him. The lanky male under me looks away from me and smiles.

"Alright Jaeger, enough about the past, okay?" I smile gently, kissing his cheek, "I'm sure there will be plenty of time to go back down memory lane later."

He gives a chuckle and nods as he looks back up to me. "Okay Levi," he rolls his eyes and places his hands up around my neck. "So what do you want to do for the hour we have left?" he challenges.

I raise an eyebrow at him, smirking a little. "You're such a brat sometimes, ya know that?" 

"And yet you asked me out, so I guess that makes you a-"

I kiss him before he can finish the thought, and he kisses back, successfully distracted enough to forget the insult he was brewing. I smile into the kiss and he smiles as well, for the moment, it's just us, nothing in the outside world matters. I lean back a little and the brat takes the opportunity to knock me off balance and get on top of me. He sits triumphant on my lap as I sigh and look up at him. I move my hand to rest on his thighs, but he intercepts them and pins them to the bed beside my head. 

"Not going to fight me on this?" he teases, inches from my face.

I lean up to him enough that our lips almost touch, "Diamond Eyes," I whisper against his lips, causing his grip on my wrists to tighten. He pulls his lip in between his teeth as his eyes close slightly. "You're still hurt." I peck his lips with a smirk. 

Eren huffs and decides I'm right. So he lays down on my chest, taking one of my hands to hold in his. They happen to be the same hand that we have the bracelets on. Now's as good a time as any, right? I mean, what else are we gonna do?

"Hope and strength, that's what they mean, right?" I ask, squeezing his hand a little.

"Y-yeah, but, how do you know that?" Eren looks up to me.

"Just a thing I remember from way back." I answer, finding that was the best way to say it.

"Yeah..." He trails off slightly. "I don't remember who told me it, but I remember it was around the time I really learned what hope and strength meant and how you couldn't successfully have one without the other."

"So I have strength, while you have hope?" 

He nods "Though it might make more sense to give you hope and me strength." He frowned, furrowing his brows and scrunching up his nose. 

I bring his hand up to my lips, softly kissing it. "Well, you are my hope, and I hope that I can be your strength," I smile. 

He looks up to me, his eyes soft, almost moldable, like he's allowing me to really see how much he's come to need me. "Levi..." 

I gently kiss his wrist and look to him, my expression just as soft as his. "Eren, I meant what I said about giving you a long life. I'm terrified at the thought of losing you." 

He pulls himself closer to me. 

"I really love you, and that also scares me." I force myself to continue.

Eren sits up once again, facing me. I sit myself up on my elbows, staring at his handsome features, which let's be honest, is just all of him. "I love you too Levi and it's okay, you don't always have to be strong." He gently speaks, looking into my eyes. They're sturdy and ready to cut me if my interest slips, it won't. "I love seeing your smile and the protective nature you have." He laughs, touching my face softly. I can't help but lean into his soft and warm hand. How did I ever survive without him? As I close my eyes for a moment I gently smile, because it doesn't take much for Eren to make me happy.

"Really, you're such an emotional guy, and to see it, well, it feels like my special secret. The Levi only I get to know." He pauses and moves his hand down my face to my arm and pulls my wrist towards him. 

His eyes study the contrast of the blue against my pale skin, his finger ghosts over the texture of the bracelete. It's almost as if he's reading deeper into the meaning than I ever could. Like the answer to everything is right there in the feather.

"It's okay to be scared, that's what makes you so brave." He continues, his eyes lifting to me. he gently kisses my cheek, then my lips. "You can depend on me Levi." He promises, his voice barely above a whisper but clear as day to me. His fierce eyes looking right through my façade, my body, my wall, down to the traumatized kid I am underneath it all.

It's probably the scariest thing he could have possibly said to me. 'You can depend on me.' It makes me feel vulnerable and fuck it's terrifying. I can feel my anxiety start to crawl up my throat, ready to run.

He seems to notice my uneasiness and softly nuzzles into me, his arms resting around my chest. I start to feel calmer, surprisingly, the normal feeling of suffocation is nonexistent as the man I love settles into my chest. 

"I'm not going anywhere." He says.

Please . . . 

No one can really make that promise. No one knows what the future holds. And yet he makes it sound as if he really can control it. He makes me believe he's telling the truth and that fate will rearrange the universe to make it so. 

I slowly lean back onto the bed so I can hold Eren close.

"Neither am I."