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3rd September 2019- SOLACE

           What's it like to spend a day, with a breathtaking atmosphere, all credits to the rain, comforting and cold and windy, just enough to make the sheer curtains blow perpendicularly to the windows and you feel the need to pull your sleeves just a little lower.

           You have absolutely no plans today. Nothing penciled in for 3rd September. No studying. No cleaning. Just lounging around. The day starts of bright and beautiful. The grey clouds today seem warmer than the golden sun. And it's a happy day. Stress on that word folks !! You feel like you're free today, to do as you please. You aren't being released or let go off, since you were never held back or tied down.

          It is simply a break. A break from constant worries. All the headaches, problems, issues and tension put on pause. It's fucking awesome. Relaxing.

          Rolled up in the warm soft comforter, cuddling your pillow, earplugs connecting you to bliss, aka music, and enlightening words from the warm pages of a book making you oblivious of the bitter truths of reality. Sometimes these dream like infractions are true. Yes!! We are lucky enough to experience such dream-like and imaginary and too-good-to-be-true days in our lives.

Today is that day......

        It gives you hope beyond measure - That yes! Tomorrow will be great just like today. You believe that you won't be thrown into the ocean full of currents without warning or lifeguard. That after every horrific and pathetic ordeal or fight or just a useless and painful day, there will always be "That Day" which will provide to us comfort and support and solace.

        And everything is going to be okay. That day and the days beyond, will not suck. Maybe it will, mostly even. But these days, the ones where you plug out of the world and it's just you and coffee and flowers or books or just anything that helps you break free from the anguish and turmoil and pain and relentless problems. Those days will make up for it. You will set free. You will be fine. Everything is going to get back to rocking.

It's going to be hard moving forward. No two thoughts about it, but this time you're prepared.

I LOVE TODAY SO MUCHHHHHH

I literally did nothing except writing and watching The Great Gatsby. And I love F. Scott Fitzgerald. And I love the Rains!