High school wars

Chapter 24

Randy garret

I'm an idiot

A fucking idiot

I just ruin the best thing that prob has ever happen to me because of my rep? Seriously I let my rep, football and my friends get in the way of my perfect relationship. Is it really that important to me? More than Naomi? How stupid can I fucking be.

And she told me she loved me.

That's the worst part of it all she told me she loves me or loved I don't know how she feels right now. She is probably a emotional reck. She also probably hates me. She was right she told me at the worst possible time but I'm happy she told me how she feels about me. It's probably the opposite by now. God I hate myself now. I'm so fucking stupid. I make the worst decision possible and I end up ruining everything. Naomi is probably the best thing that has ever happen to me. She gives me this feeing that I can't describe but it's the best feeling ever.

I love Naomi

I love her so much and I finally admit that. I love her more than I ever love crystal and I don't think I ever loved crystal so that has to mean something. I can't just sit here and do nothing. I have to do something that can make Naomi trust me again. I want her back. Our whole argument is running through my head while I'm lying on my bed. I hate myself I hate myself. I don't know what to do honestly and that's bad.

What am I suppose to do?

I can't go to school and see Naomi knowing what happen. Yes she did kiss me in front of everyone so it kinda is her fault but she had a reason to and I just overreacted. I'm tired of keeping this a secret to but what else are we suppose to do. I guess it doesn't matter now because everyone knows and we broke up. I just put my hands to my head and sigh really loud.

"Sounds like someone's a little grumpy." A girls voice said as she walked in

It's not Naomi

"Nope just sad." I said

"Randy garret? Sad I never see the day." My sister Lauren said as she sat on my bed.

"Well hopefully I'm not sad for long, but I probably will be." I told her

"Now what is making you so sad my little brother." Lauren said

"It's a long story Lauren and I really don't think you want to hear about my love life." I stated

"Well I have time and I do want to hear because I want to help.

I sighed knowing she isn't going to leave without me telling her "fine. Do you remember that girl Naomi?"

"The girl who remodeled her closet for yes."

I sighed again "well I started dating her for 3 1/2 months and it was the best months ever but the only thing was that we had to keep it a secret despise the feud that goes on at our school. At her big soccer game yesterday she kinda ran up and kissed me and I freaked out on her and we had a big argument and she broke up with me. She was tired of hiding us. She didn't want a secret relationship. The worst part is that she told me she loves me and I didn't say it back because supposedly I care about my rep more than her. I screwed everything up and I just want her to know how I feel."

"How do you feel?" She ask me

"I feel like I love her too. So much that my heart is breaking knowing she's not with me." I sighed

"Well I can tell that is true because your never this devastated about a girl before. Never in my life have I seen you like this over a girl. You must be really whipped randy."