With and Without You (A Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

Chapter 3

Vivian was definitely feeling the effects of the Tequila.

Jordan was definitely enjoying her, feeling the effects of the Tequila.

She straddled him on the blanket. She explored his muscular body with her hands. She loved his abs and chest, Very nice, she thought. She leaned down and kissed his chest and stomach. She kissed up his chest until she got to his lips. She moved so she was laying beside him. They continued kissing as she ran her fingers down his chest and stomach. She stopped once her fingers reached the top of his jeans. She ran her fingers underneath the top of his pants, she played with the button. Then she slipped her hand into his pants until her fingertips touched the tip of him. She ran her fingertip around the head of his hard dick. He moaned. She ran her fingertip down the his length. He moaned again. She was surprised at how soft it was.

Jordan reached down and unbuttoned and unzipped his pants giving her hand more room. She continued to just barely touch him. He wants her to wrap her soft, beautiful hand around him. He wants her to take care of his raging hard-on. Maybe that's not what she wants. Maybe she wants to have sex and maybe this is her way to let him know. He thinks maybe southern girls are less crass than girls from Boston. Most the girls he knows would just say "Hey come on let's do it"  or worse "let's fuck".  He liked she was being subtle. But he was down for it, so he rolled them over so he was on top.

Jordan kissed her hard, he was trying to be slow, that's what it seemed she wanted. But she had figured out what he wanted. Her soft hand was stroking him ever so gently. He slid his hand down her pants. She tensed. When his finger touched her wet mound, she moaned. Jordan inserted a finger into her, she stopped stroking him and put her hand on his forearm. "You want me to stop" he asked. She said, "No...I mean yes, please stop." He pulled his hand out of her pants. When he looked at her she had her hands over her face. He asked her, "Is everything okay? Did I do something wrong"?

"No Jordan it's not you. It's me. Things just got a little carried away. I'm so sorry. I hope you're not mad. It's just that...I've...um...I've never..." she tried to explain her situation.  Jordan figured out what she was trying to tell him. He sat up and looked down at her. He said, "You're still a virgin? For real? Wow. I didn't know girls our age were still virgins." She fixed her clothes and got up and walked away. She was putting as much distance between her and Jordan as she could. She didn't want him to see her crying.

Jordan caught up with her right as her feet hit the water.  She stopped running. Jordan almost ran right into her. She spun on him, "Please leave me alone Jordan. I don't need you making fun of me." He grabbed her by the arm. He said, "I'm sorry Vivian. I wasn't making fun of you, I promise. I didn't mean to make you feel like I was. I was just a little surprised. There's nothing wrong with you being a virgin. Its actually refreshing to meet a girl who wants to save herself for marriage."

She laughed quietly, "I didn't say I was saving myself for marriage. I'm just waiting." He was standing so close to her now. He brought his hand up to her face, he pushed her hair behind her ear. She was surprised when he suddenly kissed her. Tender and sweet, but it still sent electricity through her entire body. "What are you waiting for,  if not for marriage" he asked. She shrugged and looked up at him, "I'm just waiting until it feels right. I guess no one's ignited that desire in me before. I always thought it would be Erik, my ex, we were together since 8th grade. Then he dumped me about two weeks before Spring Break, so he could try and get laid in South Padre and not be cheating on me. It's kind of a sore subject, my virginity."

"Look Viv, I think that's great you want to wait. I don't think any less of you. I think it shows you have integrity and I respect that" he said to her. She looked at him a little amazed. "So you're not upset that I won't put out" she asked.

Jordan told her, "I wouldn't have taken your virginity tonight. So as soon as you told me you were a virgin I would have stopped. My mom taught me better than that. She taught me and my brothers that a girls virginity is precious and its a gift. She always said that if you're going to be someone's first, you should also plan to be their last. And that if you don't love the girl its not even an option. No matter what the girl says. So to this day, I've never been anyone's first".

"When did you lose yours" she asked him. He smiled at her and said, "I was fourteen." She couldn't believe that, "Wow, that's young. Have you been with a lot of girls? I mean if you started having sex at fourteen that's a lot of time to....". He cut her off,  "No I haven't been with a lot of girls. Maybe five or six, counting my first. So not a whole lot." Vivian at him with a serious expression as she said, "That's a lot Jordan. You're only seventeen".

Jordan gave her a little laugh, "Vivian,  that's not a lot, maybe it's a lot where you're from, but here we tend to grow up fast. Everyone I know was having sex by the time we got to high school. Its just normal around here that to have sex young I guess. But I do like that you've never let anyone pressure you. That you've held onto to your own beliefs. Most girls I've ever known just did what they thought some guy wanted them to do. They never really thought for themselves. But you, you're a free thinker and do what is right for you."

Vivian smiled, but she was a little embarrassed by the way he was complimenting her on her very personal decision. She wasn't taking some moral stand. Or saving herself for marriage. She just hadn't felt ready yet. She had decided long ago not to do anything she wasn't ready for. And she knew that she wasn't even herself yet, she still had some growing up to do before she knew who she truly was. She tried to explain this to Jordan, "How can I give a part of myself to someone when I don't even know who I am? It just hasn't felt right yet. Don't get me wrong, my body seems to be ready. Every fiber in my body told me how badly I wanted you earlier. But then my head kicked in. And slowed my body down."

"Your body wants me huh? What a coincidence, my body wants you too. Would you like to hang out tomorrow? I can show you around some of my favorite places. Maybe hit the boardwalk. Grab some dinner. What do you say" he asked. She smiled at him and said, "That sounds great. But are you sure you wanna put all that time and effort into a date that won't be putting out?"

"Yes, it takes all the pressure off me to have to perform at the end of the night.  I get to just go out and have a good time. Not have to worry about what's going to happen at the end of the date. So all my attention goes into the date. You have no idea the pressure we guys are put under." Jordan smiled at her. She thought, My God, he's got the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. And those lips...Lord help me!!