With and Without You (A Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

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As they drove back to the rental house they had been staying at Vivian gets a phone call from her editor Jane. She let's it go to voicemail. She wasn't very clear with Jane about when she'd be coming back to work. Truthfully she didn't know herself.

When they got to the house, Jordan thought she looked worried so he asked her, "Hey beautiful is everything okay? You look like something is bothering you".

She tried her best to not look worried but felt like her fake smile might be giving her away. "Oh it's nothing. That call was from my editor, I'm sure she wants to know when I'll be back to work. I haven't really thought much about going back.  I want to stay with you. But I don't even know if that is what you want. I haven't been able to bring myself to talk to you about."

Jordan cleared the large living room in two large strides. He was wrapping his arms around her before she knew it was happening. As he took her in his arms he brought his mouth to hers. He kissed her with purpose. Trying to tell her everything she needed know with that kiss. His hands were on her face,  then in her hair and back to her face.  His tongue glided into her opened, waiting mouth and caressed her tongue with his. She was breathless when he pulled away from her. She opened her eyes and said, "I might need more convincing than that."

He swung her up into his arms and carried her to the bedroom. He gently sat her on the bed. He was standing between her long legs. His hands went to the hem of her shirt and lifted it over her head. She sat in front of him topless, wearing only her black lace bra. His lips kissed down her neck until they found their way to her breast. He kissed the tops of each breast, while his hands undid her bra and slid it off her arms. He reached over his head and pulled his shirt over his head. He wanted to feel her skin against his. His hand cupped her breast as he took her hard nipple between his thumb and finger gave it a gentle squeeze. Vivian moaned at the pleasure this caused. He leaned forward and took her nipple in his mouth, he sucked and then slowly circled her nipple with his tongue. She moaned a little louder and grabbed a handful of his thick hair.

He went to work on her pants next. He laid her back on the bed and undid the button and zipper. He worked her tight pants off her hips, then her thighs, then down her amazing legs. While he kissed back up her legs, he kicked off his shoes and dropped his pants and boxer briefs to the floor.

He couldn't take his eyes off of her as she laid out in front of him. He wanted her so badly.  She moved her hands down and began to push her panties off herself, he was taking too long. She wanted him just as badly. Jordan finished getting her naked. Then he got onto the bed with her. He moved on top of her and held himself up looking into her eyes.  "Viv, I love you so much." Before she could reply he was inside of her, filling her emptiness with his presence. It took her breath away how right he felt, like he belonged inside of her. She cried out at the sensation she felt as he thrust in and back out of her at his slow pace. He made sure she felt every inch of him both going in and coming out.

She moved her hips to his hypnotic rythm. She picked up her pace and he matched it. He pushed her knees up to her chest and this gave him deeper penetration as he began to slam into her harder and faster. She was moaning and panting as he giving her everything he had to give. She felt her release begin to build, "Oh Jordan, yes, yes right there, don't stop...don't stop" she yelled as her explosive orgasm racked her body with tremors. The sound of her orgasm sent him soaring into his own release.

They laid in one another's arms and enjoyed the feel of each other. She finally caught her breath enough to say, "Jordan, I love you. I meant what I told Donnie. You feel like home to me. I can't imagine ever being away from you again. I hope I'm not overstepping here.  I have no idea what your plans are or what you want."

Jordan kissed her forehead and said, "Baby isn't it obvious that I want you? I've never wanted anyone else the way I want you. The way I've always wanted you. And now, after nine excruciating years, you're here with me. Baby I ain't ever letting you go."

She cried happy tears, just knowing he still loved and wanted her. She laid her head on his chest, her eyes were tired, her eye lids were heavy. She began to drift off to sleep in his arms. She fell asleep thinking about how she couldn't believe her life finally felt right again.

Vivian was woken up by a bad dream, not a nightmare, just a bad dream that she couldn't remember once she woke up. She slid out from under Jordan's arm and went to the kitchen to get a drink. She saw her phone laying on the counter and decided to listen to her editors voicemail.

"Vivian, it's Jane. Was just wondering when we could expect to see you back at work. Or at least hear from you. You've been gone a month. We really could use you on some of these concerts coming up. Call me back, ASAP. Need to know if you're coming back at all. So yeah, call me."

Vivian felt really bad for leaving Jane in the lurch, but she couldn't imagine being away from Jordan now. She needed to figure things out with Jordan.  Decide what to do. She knew she needed to decide quickly, so she could let Jane know what she was doing.

As she stood there thinking about what she needed to do, Jordan slipped into the kitchen and wrapped his arm around her waist, "Hey babe, what are you doing up? Come back to bed."

"Jordan I need to go back to New York. I've got to go back to work. My editor called and left me a message saying she needed to know if and when I was coming back. I can't stay on a permanent vacation. I've got to get back to my life, my apartment." She saw the hurt in his eyes and it hurt her to see it. "Jordan don't look like that. I'm not saying we won't see each other anymore. I'm not letting you go again. I love you too much. But I have to get back to New York. If you have a better suggestion let me hear it."

"Marry me, Viv."

"Jordan don't make jokes. We need a serious solution."

She turned around and there he was, down on one knee, holding the most beautiful ring she'd ever seen. He held the ring out towards her, "Marry me. I've loved you every day since the first day I met you. I want to spend the rest of our lives together, loving each other, the way we were meant to. You and I belong together. So Vivian Leigh Fraser, will you please do me the great honor of becoming my wife and sharing the rest of my life with me?"

Vivian had tears streaming down her face. She couldn't believe he wanted to marry her. She was broken and damaged and he still loved her. She did the most horrible things to him and he still loved her and wanted to marry her. What about her not being able to give him any kids? He hadn't mentioned it. "Jordan, what about me not being able to have kids?"

"Viv, it's not important. I want you. If I don't have you, nothing else matters. So if I can't have kids with you, then I'm just not having any kids. So again, will you marry me? Please say something my knee is starting to hurt."

"Yes Jordan, yes I'll marry you!!" He took the ring out and put it on her finger. He stood up and kissed her. He couldn't believe she was finally going to be all his. He'd waited for this moment since they first professed their love for each other.