With and Without You (A Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

Chapter 13

They took the short trip to Jordan's house and both were really quiet during the drive. Jordan thought Vivian seemed nervous. But he didn't want to point it out to her. Because he was also really nervous. He wasn't sure if she was going to say she was ready to have sex or not, but she had hinted around about it.

Vivian just sat there in the car after they pulled into Jordan's driveway. Jordan had already opened his door and was getting out when he realized she hadn't moved. "You okay babe? Would you rather go somewhere else? We can go somewhere more public if you'd like. It's no problem. And I don't want you to think I expect anything to happen tonight. I'm still on the same page we were, we only go as far as you're ready for."

She smiled at him and opened her door. "No I'm fine. I want to spend some time alone with you. I've missed you a lot. Its just seems so unreal that I'm here with you. I've thought about this moment every day since I left in March." She looked down and played with her purse straps, not able to look him in the eyes, "so far things are have surpassed my expectations."

He walked around his car and took her by the hand. "Then come on beautiful, I'd hate to disappoint." He smiled and winked at her. She couldn't help but giggle at him. He was so perfect. And she knew for sure now, she loved him. And tonight was going to be the night she showed him she loved him.

His parents were gone, but his brother was still around, not home now, but could show up at anytime. So they went to Jordan's bedroom. They sat on his bed, Jordan turning on the radio. She turned to him, his face was just inches from hers. He took her face in his hands and brought his lips to hers. His tongue swept across her lips. She opened them for him. His tongue mingling with hers, she felt like she couldn't breathe. This felt so right. She laid back on his bed, wrapping her arm around his neck and bringing him with her. Their kiss never breaking. He moved his hand from her face to her breast. Squeezing gently. His fingers finding her nipple through her clothes and he gave it a soft pinch. She moaned against his lips. She's thinking about how much she wants him. As he kisses her and touches her. She thinks about how much more she wants with him. She's ready...her mind, her heart and her body are all finally in agreement. She knows it's the right time and she knows Jordan is the right person.

She waits for him to keep moving forward. But he's stopped at moving his hand up her shirt. She's not sure how to initiate things. She really wants him to keep going and then she just won't tell him to stop. She moves on top of him, straddling him. She rubs herself against him. He groans, his hands move to her hips. He pushes her hips back, but he never moves her forward against hisself again. He holds her hips still. She's confused. She slides off him, putting her feet onto the floor.

"I'll be right back, I've got to use the restroom." She kisses him, grabs her purse, and leaves the room.

Jordan sits up and tries to clear his head. He can't stop thinking about wanting to get her naked, the sounds she was making about killed him. Then she straddled him and rubbed against his dick. He couldn't handle it. He was so turned on. He stood up and tried to get his blood flowing away from his dick and back to his head, the reasonable one. He turns when his bedroom door opens. His mouth drops when he sees Vivian standing there, looking at him. She's wearing only a sexy bra and panty set. Black lace. All the blood rushes back to his unreasonable head.

She pushes the door shut and walks towards him. "I wanted to give you your graduation present."

He can't speak.

She stands right in front of him. She stretches up onto her tip toes, her lips graze his lips. She tries to press her lips against his. He's just looking at her. He's not doing anything, just standing there. He's not touching her, or kissing her back. She backs up. "Are you okay?" She's feeling very self conscious now. She covers herself with her arms. "Why aren't you kissing me back? Is there something wrong with me, do you not want me?" She looks hurt, tears well up in her beautiful eyes. She turns to leave.

He can't say anything until he sees she's really upset. As she turns to go he grabs her arm and pulls her into his arms. "I'm sorry, you caught me off guard is all. Of course I want you. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. You're also the sweetest, kindest, and smartest girl I've ever known. How could I not want you. But your virginity is not the proper graduation present. Me graduating high school doesn't make me deserve that. Its too special."

"I'm not giving you my virginity as a graduation present. This is your graduation present" she holds up her arm, on her wrist is a silver ID bracelet, Jordan, written across the surface. She takes it off her wrist and puts it on his. "My virginity though, I'm ready Jordan. I thought you'd be happy."

"I am happy. And I'm honored you choose me. But I'm not sure I'm ready. Don't get me wrong, I did figure it would happen this summer. I just didn't think the first night you were here. I thought we'd have a little time to build up to it. And I want you to make sure you are really ready, and not just happy to be together again."

Vivian isn't sure how to feel. She knows she's not being rejected by him. She knows he likes her and wants her. But she also knows he respects her. And he wants to make the right decision together. "So you're not ready Jordan?"

Jordan looks at her, his eyes full of emotions, what emotions she's not sure.  He kisses her cheek, then whispers in her ear, "Viv I love you. And I look forward to the day we make love for the first time. I just want to spend a little more time together. I want it to be so right we have no reservations at all. And as for me, the only reservation I have now is that you just got back. I'd like to give us two weeks together. Then if we still feel ready, we plan the perfect night together. How does that sound?"

Vivian's eyes filled with tears, Jordan panicked a little thinking he hurt her feelings. "Oh babe please don't cry. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I..." Vivian put her fingers over his lips. "Jordan be quiet. I'm not crying because you hurt my feelings, I'm crying because I love you too and you've made me so happy. Thank you for making sure I'm ready. I know in my heart I'm ready. But two weeks isn't too much longer to wait."