With and Without You (A Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

Chapter 15

Fuck!!!! Jordan knew he'd hurt her. He felt her pain and it almost broke his heart.

Vivian felt like she was on fire where their bodies became one. It stung, but she didn't want him to stop. She couldn't speak to him just yet, she was scared her voice would be shakey and he might stop.

After sitting still for a little bit, she moved her hips against him. She knew he wasn't going to move inside her first. When he felt her move herself around his cock. He looked her at face, she still looked like it hurt, but that look began to fade. She opened her eyes and eased her grip on him as the pain disappeared and pleasure began to wash over her. She moved her hips, thrusting herself against him. He groaned and couldn't hold himself still any longer. He met her thrusts with his own. She began to moan louder, she grabbed him by the back of his neck and pulled his face to hers. They kissed each other deeply and passionately. Her orgasm building, she broke from their kiss and cried out his name as she lost control. The sound of her crying out his name and feeling her clench around his cock caused his own release. It was pure ecstasy.

They laid together, catching their breath. He lifted his head from her shoulder and saw she had tears in her eyes and her cheeks were wet. "Vivian are you okay?"

"Jordan, I'm better than okay. I'm wonderful. These are tears of happiness. You've made me the happiest girl in the world. I'm so glad I waited for you. I never knew before why I waited so long, but tonight showed me it was you. I was waiting for you. I love you so much."

Now Jordan was the one with tears on his eyes. "Vivian, I told you what my mom always taught us boys, if you plan to be a girls first, plan to also be her last. I can't think of anything that would make me happier. I love you my beautiful Vivian."

They basked in their love. Falling asleep in each other's arms. Dreaming of each other and the future.

The rest of the summer was like this. Spending their days and nights together. Making love to each other and falling more and more in love. It was the perfect summer. And it ended entirely too quickly. Vivian was heading back to Texas for her Senior year and Jordan was heading to college. They discussed plans to see each other over Thanksgiving and Christmas and New Years breaks. Then they'd have Spring Break. Then she'd finally graduate and move to Boston to go to college. And she and Jordan could finally be together forever.

After she went home life was hectic for both of them. But they always made time to talk. They were closer than ever and even though the distance between them was tough, it wasn't impossible.

They missed each other so much while they were apart. But they talked every night before bed. He sent her tapes of him singing her favorite songs. She fell asleep listening to him sing every night.

Jordan told Vivian about a few singing gigs he had. Two weddings, a birthday party and two at a popular bar in Dorchester. Jordan told her he was writing a song for her. He said once it was perfected, he'd sing it for her.

Vivian shared her articles she wrote for the school paper with Jordan. They were both building their lives towards their dreams. But trying to do it together even though they were apart. It seemed to be working for them. Vivian was sure they were going to make it.

Jordan visited her for Thanksgiving break. He got to meet her mother finally. He also got to meet her friends, well her best friend, Amy anyway. They all went one night and Amy gave Jordan the third degree. Which he handled masterfully. Amy was relentless with her questioning. "So Jordan, tell me this, how do you think you'll be able to make this relationship work with ya'll living so far apart? I mean who can really make a long distance relationship work? Don't you think you'll get tired of spending all your nights alone while she's here? I know you're a singer, what will you do when drunk girls at a wedding or bar start hitting on you? Promising you anything sexual you want. Blow jobs, anal....whatever you want? Will my girl Vivi even register in your mind when this happens?"

Jordan tried his best not to laugh in Amy's face, she was serious and just trying to protect Vivian. He could appreciate that. "Okay Amy I'm going to go ahead and answer all your questions, eventhough I'm a little offended you think I'd be anything other than honorable when it comes to my girl Vivian. So here goes. How do I think I can make this work long distance...because I love her more than I've ever loved anyone. She's more important to me than myself. I have to make it work, there's no other choice.
Do I think I'll get lonely spending my nights alone when she's here.....yes I am always lonely when she's here, not just at night. But she's in my heart, she's part of my soul, so I'm never truly apart from her. Next, what will I do if drunk girls at a bar or wedding I'm singing at hit on me and promise blow jobs or anal...I'll tell them no thank you. I can control myself. And Vivian is always at the forefront of my mind. Look I appreciate you're looking out for Viv. It makes me feel better knowing she has you here for her. We both have the same goal, love Vivian and make her happy."

He passed Amy's test. She liked him, she was one hundred percent behind them and their relationship. She knew Jordan would never hurt her best friend if he could help it. Unlike Erik. Amy wondered what Erik would think of Jordan. He'd seen his pictures after last Spring Break, but he was much more impressive in person. "Alright Jordan, you've got my support." He was happy about this, he knew it was important to Vivian that he and Amy like each other.
"So Jordan will you be coming to Senior prom with our girl?" Vivian looked at Amy, "Hey shut up Amy. I haven't even mentioned it to him yet. Hadn't even decided if I was going to mention it."

"Why haven't you asked me to prom yet? I'd love to go if you want me there."
Vivian looks lovingly at Jordan, feeling so loved by him. "Jordan, babe, I haven't said anything because it seems like a lot to ask you to come all the way to Texas just to go to a dance."

"Well I'm coming and that's final. Just tell me when."