[DISCONTINUED] Never 'K' Me

08 - Berry Heavy

Aria's POV

"I'm sorry about that Niel," I manage to say clearly. Even though I didn't do anything wrong, I feel like I need to say it and besides, what else can you really say? I quickly rush back to my room to make sure the conversation is private enough.

"No, it's not your fault or anyone's except mine. I've known her for 6 years and I never gathered up the courage to ask her out. I didn't even realise that I liked her until just recently but I also thought of another thing. When Jessica told us she got a new boyfriend, I was upset that it wasn't me but I wasn't particularly sad about it either. Does that mean I didn't truly like her? I'm so confused."

I listen to him without saying anything until he finishes telling me everything. I feel guilty that I'm hopeful because I might still have a chance but I can't control my stupid feelings. I'm such a selfish person.

"I'm not good with situations like these and I'm really sorry that I'm awkward. Do you want me to do something that will help you?" I'm seriously not good with stuff like this. Nicole's nan passed away a little while ago but when she told us about it, I couldn't say much and I still feel bad about it. WHY AM I LIKE THIS!?

"You've already given me advice and helped me talk about it so it's all good. I think in 2 weeks or so, this is going to blow over. I still can't explain what I liked about her so maybe it was just a little crush. How about I help you with your love?" He exclaims.

Well, that would be good and all except it's you!! I'm not gonna tell him that though.

"Uhh, sure. There's not much you can help with since I'm pretty sure he only thinks of me as a friend. Actually I'm d-definitely sure Niel," I say confidently with a stutter. It's possible everyone, even though stuttering and confidence does contradict.

"How about you start off by telling me what exactly you like about him?" He asks a little bit more cheerful since the start of the call.

"It's going to sound really girly and frankly I'm not sure if I feel comfortable telling you. I mean, I don't even talk with my best friends about this stuff!" I admit.

"Trust me, I won't judge and just say it simply then. Even just say 'I like it when he laughs at my...joke?' Or something," he tries to get me to talk.

"I guess I like how he's really fun to be around. Like most of the time I'll just be there laughing the whole time. Also he's really spontaneous and adds a little bit more excitement in my boring life," I talk about Niel to Niel. He doesn't know have to know that though.

"Maybe if I was like that, someone would like me too," he says with a sad chuckle.

But I do....

I know I like him for sure. How are people in movies or fanfics always oblivious to their feelings? At least for me, it's pretty obvious. Feeling relieved that Niel possibly didn't like Jessica or secretly blushing when he put the clover crown on my head is definitely a sign that I like him. Right?

Or when I realised he was really strong by the way he carried me down and back up to my room that night outing. The first time we met might have been an accident but I'm really glad I grazed my knee from falling. How ironic, I really did fall for him.

"I have to tell you something I just found out today. I might be mo-" Niel speaks up interrupting my thoughts of many embarrassing moments with him. I can quickly tell I'm getting flustered.

"Ohh, I'm sorry my mum's calling me to go shopping with her. I'll talk next time with you Niel. Bye," I quickly hang up with a sorry excuse to prevent myself from saying anything that hints I like him. If I kept talking I don't know if I would've been able to function properly.