𝑫𝑬𝑺𝑰𝑹𝑬 || 𝐽𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑊𝑜𝑜𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑔✔

Chapter 23

Wooyoung PV

I've been sitting in this chair for hours, waiting for Yeosang to choose his suit for the upcoming wedding
"The blue one or the green one?"
He asks, showing me the twentieth pair of bow ties today.
"Blu"
"Yes I agree. Maybe I could match a more decorated jacket ... maybe gold-"
"How can you do it?"
I ask suddenly, thoughtful in my corner of the tailor shop.
"What?"
My cousin says, still giving his attentions to the hanging jackets.
"Marry a woman you don't love .."
"My parents chose the best for me, and it will benefit the estate. I remind you that I am a earl who marries a duchess."
He says satisfied, yet I still do not understand.
"You will spend your life with her ...It's clear that you have never loved a woman-"
"Who tells you I don't love anyone?"
Now his tone becomes serious, although he continues to avoid my gaze.
"So why don't you fight for her ?!"
"Because now she's cleaning some room on the estate, pregnant with my son"
His sentence leaves me shocked, I didn't think we were so united by an impossible love.
"Do not look at me like this. She will get married soon and everything will be solved"
I continue to remain silent, thinking that even my Hea will soon escape from my hands.
"Why did you ask me this question? I know you well cousin. What is the problem?"
Yeosang says, sitting next to me.
"I fell in love..with Hea "
I admit, almost in a whisper.
"Aunt lady's companion? Shit!"
He gets up and starts walking back and forth around the room, making me nervous.
"She will get married soon I knew. There is no real problem"
"Hea will be a loyal wife, not my concubine..Plus, only the thought of sharing her disgusts me."
If I think that only having seen their hug made my blood boil, I can't imagine what I would be capable of doing if anything else happens.
"You will get used to it"
Yeosang says, returning to stare at the jackets on the clothes hangers.
"I was thinking of marrying her"
I say, immediately recapturing his full attention.
"Are you crazy?! Do you want to raise hens for the rest of your life ?!"
I remain silent with my head down; I often thought of this option, despite being the most risky.
"You have to leave! Back to being a military man"
He says in a frantic and worried tone.
"I-"
I try to oppose, although I know he is right, but he interrupts me.
"No Wooyoung! I'll miss you, but I can't let you make the biggest mistake of your life. You will forget her and when you come back she will be married and with children, and you will be ready to find yourself a wife of your level"
I wish it were so, but I know that even if I had never known her, I would miss her anyway. How could i ever forget her..