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Chapter 31

Hea PV

I look at the stars in the black sky of this spring night, bright and distant, and instinctively I close my eyes when a breeze of wind caresses my cheeks wet with tears.

I try to eliminate all the thoughts that crowd my head and concentrate only on my breathing.

I take yet another deep breath, failing in my attempt to forget the pain of my heart, and suddenly I feel a jacket resting on my shoulders.

"Tell me you're better now"
A voice that now seems to haunt me starts behind me.

I don't answer; I pretend not to have heard him because I do not want him to see me like this, I do not want him to see my eyes still swollen by the tears that I can't stop.

"Are you going to ignore me?"
Wooyoung says, sitting in front of me on the edge of the fountain.
I get up, immediately giving him back to avoid his gaze.

"Is like this how you want to spend the last moments with me?"
He insists, and another tear makes its way over my face, thinking of 'last moments'.
"If you stay, I wouldn't be like this"
I can say, in a low, broken voice.

Wooyoung grabs my shoulders, turning and pulling me against him.
And I remain still, hiding my head in his chest, now the only place where I feel protected, and I listen to his heartbeat in sync with mine finding peace.
"Hea I leave because I can't stay away from you"
He admits with his sweet voice, grabbing my chin and lifting it gently to meet his eyes.
"Why?"
I ask for more, it is not enough for me to know that he leaves because he loves me.
"Because I've already been threatened by your future husband, 'if you touch her you're dead'"
He says, trying to imitate the deeper voice of Seonghwa, making me smile a little.
"Then if he knew about the other night...You're already a dead man walking"
I blush a little at the thought of that night when I was so madly brave to go to his bedroom.
"That was nothing Hea, I was almost playing. If you knew what I would like to do to you.."
He says, lowering his tone of voice, in that whisper that always causes me to shiver all over my body, moving a lock of my hair behind my ear, and I look down in extreme embarrassment.
"I wouldn't be able to stay away from you even if you were married. Sooner or later..I'd make you mine."
His words annoy me, knowing they are true. How much more could I resist, it is useless to pretend to be indifferent; I couldn't see him every day without this ...His hands on my back that hold me close to him and mine on his strong chest, while we look into each other's eyes under the moonlight.
"We could resist, at least try"
He smiles at me, at my sentence as a deluded child, who still lives in his innocence of how the world really works.
"I wish you every happiness my little star, but not love, because that's just me for you."
His words give me a pang in my heart, and I close my eyes to avoid bursting into tears in front of him.
"If you leave ... I'll hate you forever"
I stutter in tears, pushing him away, and I start running towards the estate, still hearing Wooyoung call me.