Mentally in love (Remington Leith)

Chapter Ten

My hands clutched to the back of his shirt, holding tightly in fear that I might fall. His buckled boots making a loud click as we walked down the hallway. He seemed to be walking fast, trying to get me back to the room as quickly as his feet could take him without running.

He turned into the room and sat down with me on his lap. He set the gift he had on the floor next to my bed. My body still shaking against his.

"Take a deep breath, it's okay," He rubbed my back and began to rock me back and forth. I began to slowly calm down after a few minutes.

"Where is Rem?" I signed.

"He's at group therapy, and Sebastian is walking our dog outside in the front," Emerson explained.

"He's mad," I replied,"I couldn't keep calm around him. I can't trust him...I'm scared to trust and I hurt him. So I slept in another person's room. But it wasn't like that," I explained.

"What did he do?"

"He called me a murderous slut," I bit my lip.

"He..he did what?" Emerson whispered,"That stupid boy."

I bit my lip and held him closer to my body. I was afraid to let him go. I was afraid to face Remington.

"He won't hurt you. I won't let him say anything to you, I promise," Emerson hugged me closer. I nodded my head into his neck.

"Here, this is yours. I was supposed to bring it yesterday, but the only reason I didn't was because I was in a rush to get here...you know, with the whole orange juice thing," He trailed off. I looked at him confused.

He lifted the gift bag, it was a black bag that had a city drawn on it. There was a girl with long hair and converse with a short sleeve shirt and jeans walking around full of people in masks. She was the only one to truly be herself. I smiled. I pointed to the bag then back at him trying to make a correlation.

"I drew it, yes. The girl is you. I wanted to make it special for you," Emerson smiled at me.

"I haven't had a gift in forever," I signed.

"It's my pleasure," He smiled again. I smiled at him. My cheeks stained with tears.

I opened it to reveal a box with the word 'oil diffuser' on the top and a small picture of a glowing object. I guess it changes colors. I also found oils like rosemary, chamomile, geranium, and lavender.

"The rosemary helps with depression and moodiness, chamomile helps with anxiety, geranium helps with anger...for Rem," He sent me a wink,"And lavender is for relaxation."

"Thank you, I love it," I pulled out the oil diffuser and smiled. My heart still hurt from the events of this morning but the gift and having a real friend means the world to me.

"I made your brother hate me," I signed.

"No. No. He's a stupid boy," Emerson expressed.

"I'm not stupid," Sebastian pouted from the door way holding a very fluffy brown dog in his arms. I smiled at him.

The brown dog known as Mishka looked at me with her black beady eyes. I moved from my bed, careful not to ruin anything that was given to me. I slowly walked towards Seb and placed my hand out in front of me for Mishka to smell me. She moved her head towards mine and smelled me. It felt nice to be accepted by something so small. I have always loved animals.

She began to move and try to jump towards me. I smiled and looked at Seb giving him a questioning look. He nodded his head before handing her to me. As soon as she was in my arms, she began to lick my cheeks making me give a toothy grin,

"Want to take her for another walk?" Sebastian asked me. I nodded my head ferociously. He laughed and motioned for me to place her on the floor. I gently set her on the floor, and took her leash in my hand.

"Hey guys, what's going-" Remington stopped at the door, looking at me.

"Hey El...I'm sorry about earlier. I was...I was stupid. I'm so so sorry," he looked at me in desperation.

I ignored him. My heart ached as I began to walk with Mishka to the garden in the back. Thank god, I knew my way to this time. I could feel his eyes following me as I walked away from him. I needed some time to myself and this dog. I didn't need anyone around at the moment.

"I'll be back," I signed to Emerson before walking away, and disappeared from the view of others.

"You sure you want to go alone," Sebastian ran after me. I nodded my head. He smiled at me,"Take care of her please." I held my pinkie out, and then kissed my thumb. He nodded his head.

As Mishka and I trailed down the hall, I ran into Tyler and Josh who just waved at me and continued on their way. I also ran into Ash from group therapy and Billie. They both gave me a hug and petted Mishka for a little bit before leaving me.

As soon as I saw the glass doors that showed my wonderful safe place, my heart could not have been happier. But as soon as I stepped outside, I felt like all the problems just melted away. Like I was perfectly okay alone. I didn't need anyone, especially a man who calls me a murderous slut.

My heart ached at the thought of Rem, but I pushed it away. I'm okay. I don't need him. The red roses seemed to reach out and caress my hand with comfort. Mishka sniffed the grass and then began to lay in it. I laughed and decided to join her. I love this dog.

I wouldn't mind having a dog of my own, or maybe a cat. I've always been drawn to cats. The roses waved at me, telling me that I am okay. They smirked as the wind blew one off the stem and flew right onto my chest. I picked it up and smelled it. It smelled fresh and comforting. Like a long distant friend who you've missed dearly.

Mishka nuzzled her nose into my side making me squeal and laugh again. I laid my hand on her head and began to pet her. She growled in happiness. She made my heart feel like it was mending with each look in her eyes. I think I was falling in love with her. She was so sweet. She was the only one who wouldn't leave when things get wrong or when things got rough. Mishka laid her head on my rib and began to close her eyes, I laid back and looked at the falling sun. My eyes began to close. I began to fall asleep.

You still love him.
You're his queen.
He will apologize at some point.