Mentally in love (Remington Leith)

Chapter Thirty

Remington, Chris, and Ash all came with clothes in their hands. They took them to the room quickly before helping me put Billie into her bed. With that, we left.

"What happened?" Remington asked as we entered our room. Everyone else left back to their rooms after placing Billie in the bed.

"She was apologizing over and over, so I sang to her.." I trailed off.

"But did she tell you what she was sorry for? Did she say not to ever do it again?" He asked.

"No, but maybe no one taught her how to apologize," I smiled. I tried to see the good in her. She deserves to have friends. She's suffering and needs people to be there for her.

"You're too nice, El. I'm not forgiving her for this. I don't think you should either. For all we know, she could be plotting something else," He sighed, picking up the stray clothes that didn't make it to the bed. I stood by his bed. My hands at my side, buried in the sweater.

"I don't trust her, but it seemed genuine. I've never seen anyone cry that hard over a mistake," I rubbed my forearm. 

"We need to talk about us, not Billie," He clenched the shirt in his hands. I could see the anxiety in his hands. Like he was scared for this conversation.

"I think we should give ourselves more time, let us recover from what happened. Like a break, just...not leaving each other. I still love you, but I want to show you that. I want to show you that I'm sorry for not trusting you. I want to work to earn your trust back," I spoke.

"You can have my trust, you showed me you were sorry. That's what that whole crying session was about, remember?' Remington turned to look at me,"I love you. I don't want to lose you. You can have my trust. You can have my heart to break. My love forever. Just don't leave me. I love you too much to see you go. I don't want anyone else to call you theirs, please don't do that to me," He turned to look at me, his eyes welling with tears. He continued.

"These past few days were hell for me. I need you. I can't let you go. Please. That whole week was like torture just being away from you. I need you in my life and by my side. I need my queen. I have never felt more alone when you're not by my side. You're my everything. I don't want to live a life where you're not by my side. I love you, Eleanora. I love you so fucking much," He cried. My6 heart ached at his speech. I ran and pulled him into another hug.

"Hey, I'm not leaving you. I promise. I'm not going anywhere. I love you, I just want to earn your trust. I want to show you how much I care. I don't want you to just accept me back, I'm not worth that. I broke your heart too. I wasn't the only victim here. You deserve someone who can trust you and believe you-" He cut me off.

"No fuck that, YOU CAUGHT ME KISSING ANOTHER GIRL!!? I can't expect you to trust me or even want to talk to me after that. Yeah, we both know the truth and know why I did it now, but I love you. I trust you. You can have my heart. You can have all of me. You mean the world to me. More than that. I love you. I love you just the way you are. I don't need you to earn my trust. I wouldn't have believed me either. I had no reason to be a dick to you, and I'm so sorry. I don't deserve you," He sobbed. I wrapped my hand around his neck. My cold skin coming in contact with his warm flesh. I sat him down on the floor.

"I'm not leaving you. We are still practically dating but without the title. I love you. I do. I love you so much, but I don't want to jump back into it. My love for you never changed. You also mean the world to me. I will never let you go. You're my guy. I love you. You've done a lot for me and have changed for the better. I would love to go on a date with you once we get out of here," I smile.

"You-" He just sobbed. He sobbed harder than he ever had before. It made my heartache. He had been through so much these past few weeks. I know it wasn't entirely my fault. It was more of Billie's fault. She caused us so much pain that wasn't even necessary. I still love him and he loves me, so she didn't win. She didn't earn anything from it.

"I'm sorry this happened, but look at us. We are still here. We still love each other. We still are sharing a room. We can still be around each other. Yes, things happened and words were said that none of us meant, but we still love each other and still want to be together. I love you, Remington Leith Kropp. I will never leave your side. I am here till the end," I kissed his forehead. His tears were still falling quietly, but a small smile was placed on his lips.

I genuinely loved this man. I don't think I could go any longer without him. He is the only guy who deserves my heart. We are both equally as fucked up. But he balances me out. He makes me feel alive. He is like the element I have been missing in my life. And when he's not there, my universe just doesn't feel right. I don't want anyone else. He is my person.

"Thank you for everything. I missed you," He touched my face. His eyes locked with mine. My heart jumped. I yearned for his lips on mine. I had missed everything about him. From his hands around my waist as we sleep, to the small forehead kisses. I missed him.

He slammed his lips onto mine causing fireworks to erupt through my skin. This was it. This was what love was. The good and the bad. Everything. It was fighting and making up. It was forgiving after everything that was said. It was the unspoken tears that caused our hearts to ache. It was the kiss that mended our hearts. It was the apologies that stained our cheeks with their truth. It was everything in between and coming out stronger.

"Come back to me. Eleanora, will you be mine again?" Remington asked as he pulled away.