Mentally in love (Remington Leith)

Chapter Thirty-Nine

I awoke alone the next morning, but I was okay with it. I thought 'more time to get ready'. This was true. By the looks of it, I had slept in till around nine in the morning. I got up out of bed and grabbed a mix of Ashley's and Chris' clothes. I grabbed Ashley's black leather pants and I grabbed Chris' simple spiral black tee. I then snagged some socks from Remi considering mine were all dirty. They were red socks with the words "The bastards" on the bottom. I smiled as I grabbed the things and headed to the bathroom.

After I showered, I got dressed and then brushed my teeth. I then placed on some shoes and then placed back on my jewelry from last night. I smiled down at the gold sphere that I held in my hands. The message inside was so pure. I placed a finger over the bracelet once and felt it vibrate on my wrist.

I smiled as I felt a reply back. I did it three more times to let him know that I loved him before leaving the room. I was going to go search for him.

I threw on Remington's solid black sweater before throwing his hood over my bunned hair and wrapped my arms in the sleeves. I smiled as I felt three vibrations shoot from the bracelet. I began to look down the halls first. There was no sign of him anywhere in the halls, so I looked in the cafeteria. There I found Tyler and Josh and Billie. But no Remi.

"Hey guys, have you seen Rem?" I asked.

"No, but I'm sure he will appear at some point," Tyler smiled back at me.

"Thank you," I smiled before taking my leave to continue my journey.

I checked the band room next, but still no sign of him. I sighed and went to check the garden. There was no sign of him. My heart began to grow worried. Maybe he was at therapy...

I walked back to our room only to find him there. He was sitting on the floor by the window. He had a weird look on his face. He looked saddened. His face was consumed dark and gloom. He looked like he was stuck in his thoughts.

"Hey, baby! I've been looking everywhere for you. Where have you been?... Are you okay? You look...I don't know how to describe it. But you don't look like yourself. Did something happen? Did you get violent again?" I asked looking at him.

"No, I- I didn't get violent. I'm fine," Rem shot me a smile before standing up to look more at me.

"What is it then baby?" I smiled walking closer to him. My hands finding their way to his forearms, rubbing them up and down.

"I-I- have you eaten yet? Wanna get breakfast?" He asks, pulling me in for a kiss.

I kissed back before pulling away. I was about to answer, but in came Sebastian, Daniel, and Emerson.

"Hey dude, Larisa just told me the news. Congrats buddy!!" Sebastian screamed causing me to flinch. I looked at Sebastian confused before looking at Remington.

"News? What News?" I asked.

"Oh...you haven't told her yet.." Sebastian rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly.

"I...Baby..don't get mad okay?" Remington grabbed the bottom of my chin forcing me to look into his eyes.

"I can't get mad. They make it seem like it's good news?" I questioned.

"I get to go home by the end of next week...Larisa said I don't need to be here anymore," He pulled away looking down.

"That's such good news!! Why would I be mad about that??" I laughed. I was excited to hear that he finally got to go back to his normal life. But I did know that it meant he had to leave me...but that didn't mean anything. I was going to miss him, but I loved him. It just meant I now had to get better so that way I could see him again.

"You won't get to see me anymore. You will want to break up with me. You will be mad because we're not leaving together," he started crying. He fell to his knees, holding his eyes as he cried.

"Hey boys, can we have some alone time? I'll meet you all in the cafeteria?" I offered. They all nodded their heads before leaving. I turned back to Remi. I sat on my legs leaving my lap open.

"Hey baby boy, we are not breaking up. I still love you. I know we won't be able to sleep together anymore and that you'll start back up your music career again, so we won't be able to see each other a lot. But think. I'm not alone here. I have Chris, Ashley, Billie, and everyone else. And you can still come to visit. You know you can. This doesn't mean we are over. It just means a new chapter of our lives is happening," I kissed his forehead.

"You don't hate me?" He asked.

"No silly, I love you more than anything in the entire world," I wiped his tears with my fingers.

"No tears on your face baby, you're too handsome to cry over something so silly. We should be celebrating instead," I smiled and kissed his temple.

"You're right. I just over thought again," He laughed, wiping his eyes, but more tears kept falling.

"Silly boy, I love you. Wanna go get breakfast?' I asked, a smile engraved in my face.

"Yes please," He looked at me with tear-filled eyes. I smiled before helping him up and held him in my arms.

"Hush, hush darling," I swayed us back and forth.

I realized that holding him wasn't enough, so I resorted to singing. 

I don't know-how

Someone like you could ever love someone like me

I don't know-how

I was blessed with such an opportunity

I sang into his ears, His sobs began to shake my body as He held me closer.

And it's so hard

To put you into words

But I swear to god,

I've never met a smile like yours

I kissed his temple as I hummed the melody.

I hope you know

Just how fucking lucky I feel holding you

And I hope you know,

That I give my heart, my life, my soul to you

And as the song finished, his sobs quieted down and he was just hugging me close.

"Thank you," he whispered to me. I nodded my head before pulling him out of my arms and kissed him. I felt him smile into the kiss before pulling me closer causing it to deepen.

"I love you," I pulled away.

"And I love you," He kissed my nose before pulling away from me.

"Breakfast?" He asked. I nodded my head before walking out with him.