USWNT Oneshots

Hurts- Alex Morgan

Alex pov

I walk down to the dining room and take my usual spot near Kelley, Allie, Tobs, Press, and Carli.

"Where's Y/N?" Kelley says and I frown

"Today's the day Kels," I say and the table pauses, as the room gets quiet

"Is she okay?" Press asks concerned

"No, if I'm being honest she's not. This morning I woke up to a note saying don't expect me all day. She didn't even say love you." I said and Allie hugged me.

"This hurts her a lot more than any of us can imagine, but for you to be there for her, that's a bigger duty." Allie says and kisses my cheek.

I get breakfast and Jill walks in

Y/N pov

I kiss the grave.

"Hey girl. Today's the day." I say and chuckle while my tears well up.

"I miss you, the days don't get easier. I have training today, but I would rather be here. I love you Ella. And i miss you, please come back." I cry out and bang my fists against the ground.

"It's my fault. I was driving the car." I let out and sobbed "I got us in that crash, fuck the drunk driver, you were my little sister, MY responsiblity, and I failed. I'm so sorry." I cried harder until I couldn't anymore.

"I can't do this. I love you Ella. It doesn't get easier without you and it hurts so much, please just come back. I love you." I say again and kiss the grave leaving flowers.

I unlock my car and drive off. As I pull back into the dining room, I look in the mirror, not shocked by my appearence. My eyes bloodshot, and mascara running. I just get out and pull my hair up. I walk back in.

I feel stares down my back as I just walk past some teammates.

Alex walks up to me and hugs me. I push her away not even wanting to do this.

"Get away Alex, this not the right time."

I storm upstairs as the tears start flowing. I put on my training gear and make my way back downstairs.

The girls all look at my and frown. I see Kelley holding Alex, who looked like she just cried, but I don't care.

'Don't feel'

I think.

We make out way outside and we start scrimmaging. Ali makes a hard slide tackle on me and she tries to get me up but I hear a voice. So smooth and loving. I get up and hit my trainers arm.

I look up and walk towards the voice, that was far away.

And in a blink of an eye, she appears.

"Ella." I let out before hugging her. I start crying as I see her smile. Those eyes. "I love you, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." I cry out as she rubs my back

"Hey I am so proud of you and so fucking proud to call you my sister. Thanks for those flowers by the way, I love them, just like I love you." She pulls my chin up and I meet her eyes. "Don't worry about me, Liv and I are doing so good. WE watch every game, every fall, every single hit. You my little girl, are so strong, and I love you, and it will never stop, whether the heavens or Earth seperate us. I have to go, Dad is calling me. I love you." She says and I feel her kiss my head.

I fall forward and miss her warmth, it hurts.

"ELLA! ELLA COME BACK! please don't leave me. i love you." I whisper as I break down. I bang my head against the ground and feel arms wrap around me.

"Hey, Ella, your okay, It's Mal. Breathe for me. ALEX!" I hear Mal yell but all I hear is the sound of sirens and horns honking.

I scream out and I feel more arms surround me. But I can't get the noises away.

"SHUT UP, GO AWAY, GO AWAY!!" I yell out as I feel a strong pair of arms lift me up. I open my eyes since they were stinging with tears.

"Jill" I let out "Help me"

She sets me on the sidelines and rubs the hair out of my face.

"Y/N, Ella is gone. Your okay. She loves you so much and so do all of us, please breathe." She soothes and the noises go away as I sit up.

I was breathing hard and my eyes meet ones that have either tears threatening to spill, or tears pouring. My eyes meet beautiful blue ones and I stand up quickly and wrap her in a hug.

"Alex, I love you so much, please make it stop, make her come back.

She kisses my forehead.

"Babe if it was that easy, I would do it in a heartbeat, but it's not. Your sister is gone, but you are still here. She wouldn't want this." Alex whispers as Jill ends practice and some girls kiss my forehead and leave, while some stay.

"Then what does she want." I ask hopelessly

"You to be happy." I hear the voice say

"Ella?"

"No, it's Alex babe. Your girlfriend. Ella is gone, and she is not coming back. But she is so incredibly proud of you and is with you for every step of the way. She loves you almost as much as I do." She says and I nod.

"It hurts."

"Baby it will, it always does. Lets go tell the team your okay, you had us so worried."

We walk back and I am hugged by every person.

GAMEDAY

I hear the whistle blow for the second half to start. It's tied and I was just subbed in.Lindsey passes me the ball and I thread it to Alex. She passes it back and I look up realizing it's me and the goalie.

I hear the voice "shoot it. all the anger, all the pain, let it go. im at peace. i love you, see you soon."

I pull the trigger and the shot is followed with cheers. I fall on my knees and start crying. I kiss the ground as my teammates pull me up and hug me and sooth me. I kiss Alex

"Your amazing baby." She says.

I hear the announcer come on, "That was Y/N Y/L/N," My name is followed by cheers "Her sister died two days ago, last year, and she sure doesn't let it stop her."

I heard it

"im so proud."

END OF GAME

"How did it feel, scoring that goal, the falling to your knees?" the reporter asks

I chuckle, "my knees probably are going to bruise, but it felt so good and it hurt a lot."

"You are so strong, with everything that's happened in the past year. Any words on that?"

I stop and my eyes start watering "I do everything for her."

I look up

It hurts, but I'm stronger than everyone else

I love you Ella, but your gone

Your gone

See ya champ,

on the other side