famILY 💔(Sandersides AU)

Numbness

Fuck fuck fuck.

Virgil's head swam as he stumbled over a branch. He flung out a hand to catch himself, scratching his palm on the rough bark. He tried to regulate his breathing with little success. He felt like he had lost control of his actions as his entire body trembled and shook.

You're an idiot, he told himself, You're a fucking idiot. He's gonna hate you now.

Virgil felt pressure behind his eyes and didn't even try to do anything about it as the first few tears rolled down his face. He had ruined everything now. With one stupid, reckless move he had fucked everything up.
 
He kept walking until he reached the fence around the school, collapsing against it as a rising sense of numbness and horror set in. Dropping his head into his hands, he sobbed quietly.

He stayed frozen like that until he heard the distant ring of the bell. He looked up and considered going to his next class until he remembered who he sat opposite.

Roman.

So he decided to stay there, leaning against the trunk of an oak tree. With the school out of sight behind a few trees it was peaceful and quiet. He took a deep breath and, closing his eyes, wiped the tears from his cheeks with his jacket sleeve.

He didn't know how long he sat there for, twenty minutes, maybe more, a rigid statue. He kept his eyes closed and his arms wrapped around himself to keep off some of the chill in the air, which wasn't very effective. He would have probably remained there, unmoving, a lot longer if it wasn't for the buzz of his phone.

He ignored it, until it buzzed again. And again. And again. So, with a trembling hand, he pulled it out of his pocket.

[You have 5 unread messages]

Oh shit. He took another deep breath before opening the first of the notifications.

['Meme Team🏳️‍🌈']

[Boyf] Virgil? Where are you?

[Boyf] Virge? Are you ok?

[Boyf] Please reply!

Virgil tapped out a quick reply as well as one other thing.

['Stressedanddepressed' removed 'SirSingalot' from the chat]

[Stressedanddepressed] im fine

[Stressedanddepressed] just not coming to class

He wasn't surprised to get an immediate response.

[Boyf] Why? Did something happen? Is everything ok?

[Stressedanddepressed] yes and no

[Stressedanddepressed] ill talk about it later ur in class

[Boyf] Ok. If you're sure you're ok though

[Stressedanddepressed] ill be fine

Virgil went out of the chat with Patton and felt his blood run cold when he saw the other notifications: 

['SirSingalot' has requested to chat with you]

{Accept}
{Decline}

[SirSingalot] Virgil?

[SirSingalot] Are you ok? You're not in class and I'm worried

Virgil wanted nothing more than to throw his phone away and start sobbing again, but he felt like he owed Roman something. What, he wasn't quite sure but something all the same. So, with gritted teeth and unsteady hands he clicked on the notification.

{Accept}<

[You started chatting with 'SirSingaLot']

[SirSingalot] Virgil?

[SirSingalot] Are you ok? You're not in class and I'm worried

[Stressedanddepressed] im sorry im so so sorry

[You blocked 'SirSingalot. You will not be able to reply to this conversation or receive any messages from 'SirSingalot' from now on]

With that, he shoved his phone into his pocket and dropped his head onto his knees with an air of hopelessness. He frankly didn't care if anyone found him out here and stopped listening for footsteps the way he had gotten used to doing after so many years with his father.

When the bell rang for the end of period 7 he ignored it. Staring off into the empty space between the trunks of the trees, he pulled at a loose thread on his jacket hem. He found his mind wandering off and he would constantly have to force it back to blank emptiness.
(No prizes for guessing what he keeps thinking about)

By the time the bell rang for the end of period 8 he had fallen into a doze. A sharp trill above him started him out of it. Glancing up he saw a robin perched on the branch of the tree directly opposite him. He didn't know why, comforted him in some strange way. As he watched it flit between branches he shivered slightly, realising for the first time how stiff his joints were. Stretching his arms, he winced and the sighed.

He pulled himself up on freezing legs and looked around him. With fifteen minutes left of school he figured he should probably go and get his from by the door. So, with a sigh and a feeling of numbness we set of towards the school again.

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Three chapters consecutively? I'm on a role right now😂

Treasure this whole it lasts. I'm officially moving into my new house today so I'll be busy a weekend and next week.

Ok I gtg to class

Later🤟🏻