I felt it as it pierced into my skin. I swiped it feeling my skin open, I opened my eyes as just a little bit of blood began to seep and drip from the cut, it didn't hurt as bad as I thought is was going to, it actually felt nice.
'I told you kid.'
Katsuki continued to pound on the door. I sighed and got up with no actual motivation to do anything. I put the blade in my pocket and unlocked the door opening it. "Stop yelling. I didn't do anything...", I looked down and sighed again. "Just go home Kacchan.. please... you keep p-putting.. putting..", I felt hot tears roll down my freckled cheeks. "Putting me through pain.. I-I'm tired of it.. so please leave..",
Kacchan stares for a second. I glanced up. "No. If you stay here I'll stay here. I'm tired of your dumbass. And-", he grabbed my wrist showing the one cut. "You're unstable. And talking to yourself like a fucking maniac, You need help. Plus if my mom-",
"If your mom finds out that you weren't with me the whole time she'll punish you- is that right?", I mock him glaring daggers at him.
"Deku. You need to stop this. This isn't you- What the hell has been going on with you!! The Deku I know is a pussy who stutters!! Who's to afraid to hold a knife!! What the hell Deku?! What's been going on that I don't know about?!",
"Why does it matter to you!!?", I feel my heart rate increase then I feel it drop. "Why does it matter.. to you?... Nevermind... I-I'll stay with you.. I'm to.. to tired for this.", in seconds I feel all the energy from my body drained. I feel like completely giving up, it's that guys quirk. Wow. He's strong.. Honestly I don't mind being Quirkless anymore, so I don't care if my quirks manifest or not. I really want to hurt not just myself but someone. That's dangerous though I shouldn't. I feel a grip around my wrist as I get dragged out of my house and down the street. I just let him pull me along. I stare aimlessly at the ground- "Uhff!", that's a pole.. I hear Kacchan yell "Watch where you're going nerd!", then he continues to drag me along. I like that pain. I kinda want to feel it again... I have the blade in my pocket.. it'll be ok... No!.. No!! I don't want to feel like this... I don't want to.. but I cant help it... The feeling of hate, anxiety, loneliness, sadness, anger.. I don't know how to deal with this feeling... Its.. it's a bit too consuming...Kacchan dragged me to his room and threw me against the ground and yelled at me to stay there. I complied and sat there like I was an obedient pet. Truth be told I just feel, utterly exhausted and I don't want to get up, at all. I lay down and stare at the floor. I want to hurt someone... I really do... I shouldn't. No I want to hurt my self...
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With Or Without Me
FanfictionIzuku once was a happy boy, always looking for an adventure. That was until he was label Quirkless, and renamed Deku by peers around him, even his ex bestfriend, his 'bully'. Bakugo Katsuki. Izuku always did try his best. Never tried to give up. But...