Fated

Chapter 13

Jason watched as Emma ran up the stairs away from the kitchen. He didn't try to stop her because he knew what she had heard Logan say and it hurt her; that she just needed to be alone. Jason wanted so bad to follow her and comfort her but he knew that would just make her feel worse to have him see her so upset. So he walked into the kitchen and found the boys sitting at the breakfast bar.

The boys looked up and saw Jason walk in the kitchen and stopped talking. They both sat with their heads down so that he could not see their eyes. It was Logan that spoke first. "Hey sorry Emma I didn't think that you guys were trying to you know, well I guess you know." Logan looked up and saw that Jason's eyes were not filled with anger this time but with worry, sadness, and love. Logan looked around and found Emma nowhere to be found. "Hey where did Emma go I thought she was right behind us with you?" Logan said worried now.

"She was until she heard what you said just now. She was already feeling bad that she was angry with you, then she heard what you said and it just added to that feeling. I don't know why though you deserve it if I was you're sister I would not have just yelled at you. Damn it Logan you couldn't just leave it and gone and made some cereal or waited until she came down and made you breakfast. You had to push it, you demand that she make you food whenever you want it, sometimes you only think about you're self."

"Don't yell at him Jason." Emma said as she came into the kitchen perfectly made up there was no evidence of the tears she had shed or the pain she felt. "Jason go shower and get dressed and breakfast will be ready when you come back down. I put fresh towels for you on the toilet seat of my bathroom." She said as she stood on her tip toes to kiss him on the cheek and then went to get the eggs and bacon out of the fridge to make breakfast.

When Jason left and it was just Emma and the boys in the kitchen Logan looked at his sister. She looked as though she had ice in her veins that what he said had not hurt her when he knew it had. "He's right you know, Emma I only think about myself sometimes. I'm sorry I hurt you're feelings Em. I really am. I should have left you both alone and waited or made myself some food I am more than capable of making eggs and bacon." He started to say more but Emma held up a hand to stop him.

"Logan if you had just left us alone and made you're self some food you wouldn't be the brother that I love so much. Though you did deserve for me to be angry with you I should have never raised my voice. We were not brought up to scream and yell at people. Now let's move on so I can finish breakfast. I am going to need you and Evan to watch mom for a couple of hours tonight starting at six. I have plans for dinner so I will leave you some money to order some food when you get hungry." She said not waiting for Logan to respond and went back to making breakfast.

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After breakfast the boys washed the dishes by hand even though Emma said she would do it. Logan protested and said that he wanted to do it. Emma left them to go check on her mother. When she got to her room she knocked on the door and opened it to find her mother reading Jane Eyre. "Hey mom how you feeling this morning?" Emma asked as she sat next to her mother on the bed.

"A little tired, I didn't get much sleep last night with the storm. I tossed and turned all night. But I am fine otherwise I was just about to take a nap when you came in. I heard yelling in the hall this morning. Is everything ok?" Emily asked in a worried tone.

"Everything is fine now mom no need for you to worry about it. I will just let you take your nap now. If you need me just press your button ok." Emma got up kissed her mother's forehead and left the room.

When she was in the hallway she saw that Jason was waiting for her. He took her in his arms and embraced her in a fierce hug. He kissed the top of her head as she rested it on his chest. "You put up a good façade you know Emma." He said as he loosened his grip on her some so that he could look her in the eye.

"I know Jason it's just part of who I am." She rose up on her tip toes to kiss him gently on his lips.

"I was going to drop the boys off at the condo to help pick up some of the yard while I was at the precinct. If that is ok with you I figured you could use some time alone for a little bit." He said as he walked with her to her room.

"That is fine. I was planning on picking up the yard here a little so that I could bring mom out for some fresh air in the garden when she woke up from her nap. Thank you for what you said to Logan this morning. You said what I couldn't and wouldn't have even if I could. I can't stand seeing him hurt because of me if I lost him I would have no family left. Mom is hanging on by mere threads. I would die if Logan hated me." She said as she paced her room.

"Logan would never hate you Em. He loves you too much. And as much as it hurt to see you run upstairs knowing that I couldn't follow you that you needed to be alone made me hurt. I love you so much and my heart brakes to see you upset." He said pulling her back into his arms so that he could make sure she was whole and safe.

"Jason I love you too. And I thank you for giving me space when I needed it most." She lifted her head and saw that his was just above hers. Their lips were almost touching. It was Emma who closed the gap between them and kissed him. It was not a very passionate kiss but it made Jason's toes curl with wanting her. Knowing that he needed to get to work Emma pulled away and rested her head on his chest.

"I have to go but I will see you at six ok honey? I had Logan program my cell phone, desk, and home number in your phone so that if you need me I am just a call away." He tipped her chin up with his finger and brought his mouth down to hers for at hot passionate kiss. Then he pulled away with regret in his eyes. "I hate to leave you with out finishing what we started earlier." He said as he rubbed his lips over hers.

"That's ok go on we can finish later after dinner." She said kissing him on the check as she walked down stairs with him to where the boys were waiting in the living room.

"If you need me just call me Em ok." Logan said giving his sister a hug and walking to Jason's car with Evan.

"I love you Emma. I will be back later to get you." Jason said giving her one last kiss before he left.

"I love you too Jason. I will see you at six. Go, go on and get your work done." She said with a smile as she walked to the porch with him. She stood there until Jason backed the car out of the drive way and drove away down the street. Then she went back in the house and for the first time since she was back she looked around the living room and saw how different it was. The furniture was new and the carpet looked cleaner than ever. She walked over to the mantel where pictures of her and Logan where placed. She realized how big it was and how much she wanted to fill it with photos of her own children. For the first time since she had turned nineteen the thought of having kids crossed her mind, she yearned to have them fill the house once her mother had passed. She would fill the house with as much love as her mother had.

She walked through the rest of the house realizing how bare it had become there was no longer pictures on the stair well or in the upstairs hall way. For the first time since she was ten and moved here she was lonely and wished she had her best friend to talk to. But there no longer was a best friend for Emma. Taylor had left her alone and betrayed her. For the first time since Taylor left her she was happy Taylor was out of her life. For if Taylor had set eyes on Jason she would do whatever she could to take him away from Emma just the way she had with Pete. Taylor had hated Emma for some reason Emma could not fathom. For the first time in thirteen years Emma took out her box of letters from Taylor and read them over and over.

Emma tried as hard as she could to figure out when her best friend had started to hate her. With no luck Emma put the letters away and went outside to pick up the yard.