The New Midwife

Chapter 6

I woke up to sister Julienne shaking me slightly. I opened my eyes and smiled at her telling her I was awake. She left the room and I got dressed. I headed downstairs wearing my wimple and I joined my sisters in the chapel. I stood next to sister Julienne and sang, I sang as loud as I could feeling god's songs flowing through me like blood through my veins. I saw sister Julienne looking at me and smiling wide as she sang along. Once we had finished sister and I waited for everyone to leave before we sat down and began to speak.
"You sang loud today" sister Julienne smiled loud at me.
"Yes sister I did, I took heed of your advice" I smiled at her then looked at the stained glass panes.
"Keep it up, now I must let you wake the others" she smiled at me, patted my hands and she left heading to her office. I stood up and headed upstairs to wake the other girls. I knocked lightly on Phyills's door then on mine and Trixie's. I then headed back downstairs and began sorting breakfast for my sisters and the nurses. We sat around the table laughing and talking enjoying there breakfast. I sat listening to the nurses tales of childhood and the future.
"What about you sister Huxley?" I heard Trixie ask.
"Sorry Trixie what was the question again I wasn't listening" I apologized blushing slightly.
"It's ok deary I was just wondering who was your first kiss?" Trixie asked smiling.
"Oh" I said blushing, looking at sister Julienne.
"If it makes you feel better I could tell you my first kiss sister" she said attempting to comfort me.
"Oh really sister Julienne do tell us" Trixie smirked.
"Well we were 8 years old if I remember correctly and we were playing tig outside running around and then when George caught me he kissed me and then ran off" she told us. Trixie couldn't hold back her laughter at the new gossip.
"So what about you sister Huxley" Trixie pried.
"We were 18, young and stupid he walked me home and then he kissed me" I said plainly looking at my hands.
"Come on, sister Julienne gave us more detail than that" Trixie pried more.
"I don't like to talk about it" I murmered.
"Oh please, I told you my story" Trixie pried again getting on my nerves.
"I said I don't want to talk about it nurse Franklin and now if you don't mind I would like be excused sister" I spat at her.
"You may be excused" sister Julienne said quietly. I pushed my chair out and headed for the stairs not daring to look at Trixie or anyone else for that matter. I sat on my bed staring at the closed door and the empty white walls. Tears began flowing from my eyes, I layed down on the bed and faced Trixie's bed. I couldn't bare to see anyone, I thought I had left this life behind me but it will always hang over my head. Like a shadow following its owner in the daylight or a cloud following a sad cartoon character. I needed to let this pain out because it just would never go away. Not ever.