I woke up and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. I looked at the clock on the bedside table and saw that morning compline was starting. I jumped out of bed and put my wimple and shoes back on. I ran downstairs to get to early morning compline. I made it the bottom of the stairs before I tripped but luckily landed on my feet, I kept sprinting for the chapel. I quickly entered and took a place at the back. I began to sing loud and clear just like sister julienne asked me to. Then I saw her turn around and smile at me.
After compline, I waited for the other nuns to leave so that sister julienne and I could talk.
"You didn't wake me sister" I said.
"I know and I'm sorry for that but you needed to sleep" she said motioning for me to sit.
"I know that too I just needed to pray with you and the other nuns" I said looking at the stained glass.
"Praying is only part of what we do as nuns and you know that, if me miss compline we can seek forgiveness as we are doing god's work but why is it so important to you?" She asked.
"I have a lot to seek forgiveness for and a lot to make up for sister" I said frowning.
"How many times have you seeked our lords forgiveness?"
"More than I can remember sister" I said playing with my dress.
"It must have been something really big to need that that much forgiveness" she said placing her hand over my moving ones stilling them.
"It was sister and everyday as I work I think of my mistake and I ask the lord's forgiveness I just don't know if he actually hears me" I admitted letting a tear fall. Sister julienne wiped my now wet cheek.
"My dear at some points in our lives we all make mistakes but it's about facing what we have done and admitting that it was wrong that allows us to be forgiven even in the eyes of the almighty" she said looking at the lord's statue on the table.
"I know sister, when we joined they told us if we pray we can be forgiven in time, I just feel that because I don't forgive myself he will never forgive me" I said letting more tears fall.
"Then you have identified the first step my sister forgiving yourself" she smiled kindly at me giving me her hanky to wipe my eyes.
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The New Midwife
FanfictionSister Huxley, a new sister and midwife must face the challenges of a new town and home to help guide newly expectant mothers into a new dawn called parenthood whilst hiding the secrets of her past...
