I shot up in bed and started to hyperventilate. My chest hurt. I was cold. I got to my feet and went into the living room to get warm. My eyes were red and I was shaking. I didn't know what was going on.
I heard movement outside, and looked over to the window. A big black shadow darted across the window and disappeared. What the hell...? I went over to the couch to see if Ethe was awake but nobody was there. I walked down to the bathroom to check if she was there but it was empty.
I thought about calling her but realized that it was a long shot. I was still shaking and my heart was beating very fast. I figured I should go to sleep.
I sat down on the couch and put my feet up. I couldn't stand up straight so I leaned back on the couch and closed my eyes. I felt something poke me in the back, and moved to see Ethe's keys. So she's still here! I leaped off the couch and entered the kitchen. Nothing? Where is she? I heard the clunking of the washing machine and decided to check the laundry room.
There was Ethe, asleep on the drier. She most likely fell asleep waiting for her clothes to finish washing. I giggled slightly, and went back to the kitchen to grab a knife. But the thing was, I wasn't the one controlling my body. It was like I was inside my head watching it all happen.
Your psyche has finally been broken, huh? All this time you've been living like there is an omen over your head and I'm here to tell you that there is. You are going to walk back into that laundry room and cut your pretty little friends tongue out. And then guess what? You are going to take your life and turn it into the horror that it deserves.
You'll feel nothing, because you're fucking retarded and you don't understand what life is. You'll know that you're going to die, but you'll be too weak to move and you'll just feel the pain of your own death, because you're too scared to do anything about it. You'll feel no pain, because your brain won't allow it, it will never allow it. That's why you'll die. Because you will never realize the importance of life.
And that's why your life will be pointless and meaningless, because you'll only think about yourself. You will only be thinking about how much you don't like the way your body is feeling right now and how much of your life you don't really need to exist, because you'll never get to experience the true happiness of life, because that will never be yours to experience. Your whole life will be meaningless because you won't have anything to look forward to.
My head was spinning with the rapid succession of thoughts going in and out of my head.
This is too much.
I felt my eyes roll back and I collapsed to the floor. Empty.
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Dark Space
Mystery / Thriller"Just don't think, just don't think, just don't think." Juniper is trying to live a normal life, even though she suffers from paranoid schizophrenia, trying her hardest to ignore it all. But after a hospital visit, her life seems to be falling to p...
