Letting Go

CHAPTER 25.

We continue to sing along to the next song. Evanescence everybody's fool is the name of this song. We both in the front rocking our heads about and playing air guitar . The other two in the back seat are looking at us as if we lost our marbles.

"You dont know how you betrayed me ". That line hits a little more closer to home then they intended it to. It sliced through but I'm not going to ruin this day. I push those thoughts to the back of my head and focus on my sister having fun for the first time in a long while, since Caitlyn left. When Caity left she took my love and my sisters bestfriend with her. We both felt abonded by her I'm just realizing that now. I've been so caught up in my feelings of betrayal that I forgot lexy lost her too.

We pull into the mini golf place and lexy beams the brightest smile before jumping out before I could even park.
I guess she knows what this place is associated with. Our dad used to bring us here almost every Saturday.

"How did your dad die ?" Nea asks me after having this lost in thought look for a while.

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. "Hmm Nea I don't talk about it much".

"Nea,  no one's ever called me that befor , it was always Lynn." She smiles at me. "Why don't you talk about it  ?" She prys further.

I don't want to be rude but I don't want to open up to her. I always open up and then they leave. That's ironic because I want her to be my best friend but I don't want to trust her.

"Let's talk about this some other time"

"Promise" she jumps up at my statement .

She looks like a damn pixie. Yeah I used to watch those things with lexy. Even vampire diaries. But lynnea isnt small , she's taller then most people. She's just short for me. Her forehead goes under my chin. So how tall am I. 

"Promise " she asks again.

"I promise " I tell her but I know I'm going to regret this.

I watch Lynnea try this but she can't hit the ball right and when she hits the ball she doesn't use enough force. I wonder if she will ever get the hang of this. I doubt it.

"You should really go help her you know" Harry whispers to me.

"You go help , you two got along in the car".

"Come on Tyler you were so happy with Caitlyn and maybe this girl is what's gonna make you happy again".

"Look I just want a friendship with her and nothing more".

"You can't be serious , Tyler you crave relationship . I see it in you . We all do. You really need her to help you move on from cait".

"His right you know " lexy gets to the other side of me.

I'm so shocked that these to are actually telling me to use the girl infront of me. Lynnea doesn't deserve that , not a single bit.

"Guys I dont want to use her like that if it happens then it'll happen but there's no intentions to be anything more than just friends with her". I roll my eyes at both of them, "but you are right about the helping part she fucking needs it " we all burst out into laughter.

"Let me help you " I stand behind her and pull her waist closer to me. Lynnea jerks away at first but leans into me after staring at my eyes for a while.

"Do you trust me ?" I ask her while I position her elbows and shoulders correctly.

"Yes " she let's out a breath.

I slide my fingers down her arms until I get to her hands. I clasp my hands over hers and pull back and hit the ball with enough force for it to bounce of the wall and go into the hole.

"Yayyyy" was all she said. She looked so happy that she finally got one. Technically we because I assisted her but who noticed.

We found ourselves at one of  lexys favourite ice cream parlours in a whole different town 29 miles away from home. This, this feels good . The crunchy texture of my hazelnut nutella coffee sundae, feels amazing against my tongue. And a peanut butter toffee milkshake to go sounds right. I feel the sleep taking me under so I make lexy drive us home and I'm sitting in the back with nea.

"Come here " she pulls me closer to her. "You didn't sleep last night did you" she says more to herself than me. She lays my head on her lap and starts drawing circles on my cheek. The whole ordeal felt so relaxing. Before I knew it I passed out.

"Come on Tyler. Get up you meathead. We home you can go to bed and sleep" Lexy is practically slapping me now. "Harry if he doesn't get up I'm leaving him in the car".

With a groan I get up and barely make it through the door. My body has its crash mode on. They had to drag me upstairs. I woke up the next morning still tired and with a dreadful fucking headache. I'm late I know that much and better get up before lexy kicks my ass. Harry and lex have to walk to school when I can't or more honestly don't want to go to school. I run the cold water and go under the shower. I hoped that the chilled water would jerk my body awake but it failed to do so. I just felt really cold when I got out and I've never appreciated my skinny jeans more. The fabric stuck to my legs.  I need to do my laundry because all I have left in my cupboard is this two tone pink t-shirt, a total stand out as opposed to my usual black or white.

I look like a fucken Willy Wonka factory worker. I don't even know where this thing came from but I remember putting it away so that I never see it again but here it is in front of me.