Moments // Billie Eilish

Chapter 41

It's been two months since my last conversation with Billie, but we have been texting each other. Just to check up on each other and lately she's been supporting me through my final exams as I graduate next month, which is both terrifying and exciting.

But apart from updating each other every few days on what's new or stressing us there hasn't been any other form of communication. I haven't heard her voice in two months apart from religiously watching interviews as sad as it is. But she did tell me that she has a new song out soon which I'm excited about. 

"Harri how much maths study have you done?" Pen asked me quietly since we were in the library at school.

"I've made all my notes on the content in here, pretty much rewrote all the key points in the textbook" I handed her my maths book which is pretty much my bible to ace our last ever maths exam.

"Thanks" she took it off me as my phone began buzzing. Picking it up I was surprised to see Finneas calling me. Why would he be calling me?

"I'll be back" I told Pen and Lucy and left the library to go outside.

"Hey Fin" I answered as I sat at a free table under a tree and looked around to make sure there were no teachers around.

"Hey Harri! How are you?" he asked, and I was overcome with warmth from missing him and his caring nature.

"I'm good Fin, a little stressed from school... well actually I'm really stressed but I only have one more month and I'll be done so I'm just constantly reminding myself that it's short term gain. How are you and Claudia?" I told him.

"Aw that sucks, but yeah only one month and you're done. And we are good, just bought a house actually which is super exciting you'll have to come visit us when you come to LA"

"Holy shit that's amazing! When do you move in?"

"We've already started but Billie and I are heading to Mexico tomorrow for the last leg of tour and Claudia is staying here to move her stuff in and sort out furniture. But talking about our house is not why I called" he said.

"Well I didn't think so either" I laughed "what's up is everything ok?" I asked, automatically worrying about Billie if she's ok.

"Billie's fine if that's what you're asking" he chuckled "but it does have to do with Bil, but she didn't have the guts to ask you in case you rejected her. The dweeb"

Why would she be scared about me rejecting her?

"What did she want to ask? Bil should know she can ask me anything" I told Fin confused by Billies change in attitude. She's one of the very few people I know that are never backwards in coming forwards and her bluntness is one of the things I love about her the most.

"Well since you are graduating and everything while we are on tour break, she was wondering if you'd mind if we came to your graduation ceremony or however you celebrate graduating in Australia"

"Uh—" of course I'd love them to come but everyone at school will recognise them and that might take away from the graduating class. I can just imagine no one at the clap out because they're all trying to get photos with Billie. But the larger part of me wants to be selfish and say yes because I haven't seen her or her family for so long "are you sure? Is Billie sure? Because you guys will be recognised instantly, and it might be dangerous and—"

"Harri, Billie is the one who blocked off a week from interviews and shoots to come visit you and made Claudia and I make sure our schedules are free too. Believe me she doesn't care about all that. She still loves you Harri, very much" Fin reassured me.

Even though she's told me over text that she still loves me, it's different hearing it from a person that she does. It stops all my doubts and makes my need to see her even greater.

"I'd love to have you guys here" I told him with a huge grin on my face "are you with Billie by any chance?" I asked hopefully.

"She's actually sitting inside watching me through the glass door as we speak" Fin laughed "you wanna speak to her?"

"Only if she wants to speak to me" I nodded even though he can't see me.

"Hold on a sec..." he said "Billie!" I heard Fin yell out to her "Harri wants to talk to you" a few moments passed before a I heard the phone being picked up through muffled noises.

"Harington?" her smooth voice asked, and I instantly felt calm. Its crazy we haven't talked for two months and the second she says my name I forget about all my stress and am practically jumping to the moon with joy.

"Hey Bil"

"Oh my god" I heard her whisper to herself, and honestly, I feel the same "I miss you bro" she said quietly "like a lot"

"I miss you too bubba" I couldn't refrain from calling her that even though we aren't together anymore "like a lot" I added making her laugh "so you want to come see me graduate?"

"If you'll have me?" she asked "oh and Fin and Claudia"

"Of course. It'd make the experience of graduating a million times better if you came Billie. But what about everyone who will ask for photos and stuff? I don't want the attention that the graduating class deserves to be all on you, because that's not fair to them or you"

"Yeah, I've already thought about that and I figured if I just hid in the back, I'd be fine. But if I do get recognised than I'll say photos later and just focus on the kids graduating. But I'll be wearing sunglasses even though it never really works"

"As long as you're ok with being recognised then I'd love you to come Billie"

We talked for a little longer until a teacher noticed me on the phone and yelled at me to get back to studying. Unfortunately I had to say goodbye to Billie, but she said she'd call me later to figure out dates and everything.

"Who were you on the phone to for so long?" Lucy asked before I had the chance to even sit down.

"Finneas called me and then I spoke to Billie for a little bit" I whispered to them and looked around to make sure no one was near us in case they could hear what I was going to tell the girls next.

"What why?"

"Well they're coming to graduation—"

"They are?" Lucy asked loudly attracting attention to us from other students and the library ladies who already hate us.

"Shut up! No one can know they are coming though because she wants to keep a low profile"

"You two are so going to get back together" Pen said knowingly.

"I don't know" I shrugged "we'll see"