His Secret Child

13) I Do

|Emma|

There he is standing at the altar with Rebecca and her dress is beautiful. The priest is announcing all of these different things to the audience, but I don't hear any of it because all I can do is stare at Carter and think he's going to know.  

He's going to know that we have a daughter together, and yes I did want to tell him face to face but I'm kind of glad I didn't. Because it would have maybe ruined his perfect day. His wedding day. After all of these years, I'm finally not afraid of Rebecca and what she might do if she finds out Carter knows. It's none of her business but I guess it is, she's going to be Charlotte's step-mom which is so weird to think. 

Given the fact that when I was pregnant and wanted to tell Carter about our child, she did everything in her power to get me to not tell him. She wanted nothing to come between her and my best friend who I'm also in love with. But I'm not going to hide it anymore, he deserves to know and I know that now. I may have been a scared eighteen-year-old girl about to have a baby, but I'm not scared anymore. 

Shaking my thoughts away I realize that it's finally the big I do part of the wedding and it's not until then that I realize I am physically shaking in my seat. I never wanted him to call off the wedding and I don't want him to say I don't because of my presence here. All I want is for him to happy. 

So I sit here patiently waiting for those two words to leave his mouth. He deserves to be happy and in love even if it's not with me. And I want him to be in his daughter's life. No matter how much I love him I will never come between him and the love of his life. 

 "Carter Wells, do you take this woman to be your wife, to livetogether in holy matrimony, to love her, to honor her, to comfort her, and to keep herin sickness and in health, forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?"

It feels as though time stops at that very moment and Carter's head turns to face the audience, his eyes start to search the crowd, and for what feels like forever Carter's eyes land on me. His eyes switch between me and Charlotte, I know in that moment he's hesitating and I don't want him to but he is. But suddenly he changes, he straights his back and rubs Rebecca's hands that are in his, I don't know what he saw that made him change but it does make me wonder for a minute what it was. 

He takes a deep breath before looking into Rebecca's eyes and says "I do." He said it and I didn't even realize I was holding my breath this whole time. I look down at my feet as one tear escapes and falls down my cheek, I let out the breath I was holding in and when I look back up I hear Rebecca say I do. The crowd goes wild as the newlyweds kiss and face the crowd with smiles on their faces. 

That's it. Carter Wells, the man I'm in love with and the father of my child is married. And once he reads the letter I have written to him, he's going to know that we have a child together. I turn to Charlotte and give her a sweet smile before getting up and reach for her hand. We're not going to the reception and I can only do so much. I give her a kiss on the cheek and tell her to get ready to leave. 

We walk out to where my car is and I hold my head high I did the right thing today and I'm proud of myself. Now I don't know what's going to happen now but it feels like a heavy weight has been lifted off my chest and I can finally breathe again which feels really good. Keeping in this secret for the past five years has not been easy for me at all, there have been so many times when I have just wanted to come clean and tell him but I knew in my heart it wasn't the right time. 

I guess now all I have to do is wait until I hear from Carter telling me if he wants to be in Charlotte's life or not. It's up to him now. But as long as he is happy I will be happy for him.

"Because what's worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?" 

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-E