Germangie meets The Count of Monte Cristo

Chapter 7 - Painful remembering

- W-what did you do?! - German stuttered. He didn't know how to react for sure, but I had to finally say it. He wanted to know... Now here it goes.

- You heard me!

He was frozen now.

- You keep playing around with my feeling so I decided to go away to France. I didn't know what to do, or how to do.... I also lied about my reason.

- So... You say then there was no new job either?

- Yes.... - I sighed then started my story - I got on the plane and I couldn't do anything else just cry and cry. I didn't know what am I gonna do when I arrive to Paris. All I knew was I had to find a job, an apartment to live and that's it which first seemed easy, but then it wasn't... Problems came after problems and I was lost in what to do and if it wasn't enough then I just couldn't think about anything, or anyone else but you... And thoughts about you were all like a knife in my heart... Painful... Soon what I finally get I lost it as well and I was desperate, but I tried to hide it from Vilu when we were talking because if I tell her I know she'd went straight to you and you would have just come after me and I didn't want that... I didn't have anything, I didn't have anyone. I only had the necklace which was Maria's and a pocket knife. You can probably guess what came into my mind very soon.

- Angie... - he gasped as he went pale.

- Yes... I didn't want to live anymore with all the pain I felt...

- Oh my god... - he was now rubbing his head.

- Wait, wait! Now comes the interesting part!

----- FLASHBACK -----

I was crying in the middle of the night on the streets. No one was outside so I didn't really care... After a while I sat down on a bench, took a deep breath while I get my knife and I almost stabbed myself with it, but the someone grabbed my arm from behind...

- What do you think you're doing?! - said the male voice behind me and when I turned around I saw a tall man standing behind me, holding my wrist not too tightly, but firmly to stop me doing anything.

I was looking at him for a moment then I couldn't help, but started crying while he get the knife out of my hand.

- What's wrong, mylady? - the man asked me as he sat down beside me on the bench - Why did you want to kill yourself?

- My life is just full of pain.... - I cried, trying not to look at the man - Just leave me alone with my pain and let me end this!

- I'm truly sorry, but I'm not gonna leave you now - said the man firmly then placed two fingers under my chin and lifted my head up - Tell me your name...

I was hesitating to answer, but when I looked into the mysterious man's eyes for some reason I felt so much better. I felt that I can trust him.

- Angie... My name is Angie... - I muttered.

The man smiled and wiped away my tears gently.

- It's nice to meet you, Angie... - he said - I feel like you have so much pain and sorrow in your heart... I know how you feel... But I want to hear it... Do you want to talk about it while you're coming to my house for dinner?

- I... I really shouldn't...

- Please... You'd make me really happy with that...

- I don't even know your name...

- Ah, Excuse my rudeness... - he said as he held out his hand - Well, people call me the count of Monte Cristo for a good reason that I'll tell you later about... But my real name is Edmond Dantes...

Looking at him in the eyes I could clearly see sorrow in his eyes too. I don't know why, but I became curious so I decided to go with him.

When we arrived I couldn't believe my own eyes. He had the biggest house in... in the whole city and inside it was even more bigger and more beautiful.

He then patiently helped me get myself together again and listened me over with all the things that was in my mind.

- So this guy... German... Broke your heart... - Edmond mumbled.

- I know it sounds like a very silly reason to be in the shape I was when we met... - I shaked my head, but he just gently grabbed my hand.

- No... Basically none of your friends were there for you when you needed them... I understand that when you came into an unfamiliar city all alone you had no one to get help from you felt like after a while that you have nothing to live for... I had similar feelings too, but then I remembered something....

- And what...?

- That I still have people who cared about me and wanted to help me, but yet they couldn't... And I also remembered those who ruined my life... - he said with a weird light in his eyes.

- Edmond...

He suddenly snapped back to reality and smiled at me.

- But if you don't have anyone here... Then let me be your friend and be someone who helps you... okay?

I smiled and nodded.

- Thank you so much... I really do...

- It's nothing - he smiled as he touched my cheek - I just couldn't let a beautiful life go to waste in front of my eyes...

And after this he told me about his story and soon we got closer and closer while I started work for him. He also had a very cute girl who he saved and... well, she was like a daughter to him and soon he told me she is the princess of Janina. Her pearents were killed, but that's another story.

I became her tutor which made me remember pretty much of Violetta and I loved it because she's just as smart as Vilu.

----- FLASHBACK END -----

- ..... And after 5 years here I am again...

- Why do I feel like there's something else in this? - German asked, looking suspicious.

- What do you mean?

- You have deeper feelings for him, don't you?

Now I had to take a deep breath before I continued...

- And what if yes? And what if I have deeper feelings for him than friendship?

- He seems to like Mercedes... Morcerf's wife for some reason.

- I very much know the reason... - I sighed as I looked around in the huge garden where the balcony was open.

- You clearly doing the same as you did with me...

- No... - I shaked my head with a sarcastic smile - There is one difference...

- What?

- That he never ever promied anything to me like he'll love me forever and stuff like that...

German was speechless.

- He never said he loves me... He never said he feels more than friendship love... He never lied to me... This is so much different from our situation, German...

- Angie, I didn't lie to you...

- Yes, you did! And I admitted... so many times that I love you... that I fell in love with you and yet you kept ignoring it! - I said, now near to cry - I love the count, yes... I don't deny it... But he never said he feels the same way like you did!

I almost screamed, but I kept my voice down as much as possible.

- Now leave me alone and go back to Priscilla! - I groaned and turned away from German. I just didn't want to look at him anymore...