no.
don't go there.
don't let your mind go there.
you know it hurts thinking about him.
about how he hurt you.
with his actions, his words.
so, don't.
unfortunately,
when you tell yourself
not to think of something,
that damn thing
will come
floating back into your mind.
don't picture his face.
i can vaguely remember his eyes, those eyes that belonged to someone i once loved, from the extremely deep end of my memories
don't. go. any. further.
i remember how he looks, his face that still haunts my heart, terrifies me to pieces, because i'm still unable to shake off the pain he once inflicted on me
my heart squeezes. my eyes sting. my lips quiver.
no.
stop.
thinking.
of.
him.
god, why am i not in control of my brain,
or my thoughts?
i remember his voice, the voice i remember but i pushed it away, pushed it to the deepest depths of the river that contains all my memories, because his voice hurts. it hurts so much, you have no idea.
chills run up my spine.
i feel the chills on my neck.
my hands tremble.
my body starts to shake.
i remember that once time, we held hands. we were laughing. we were running. we were happy. and you ruined that.
i sank to my knees
hands on my face
hair shielding my vulnerable self
as i let the floodgates open
for the first time in ages
i told myself
to not think of you
to not cry because of you
why can't i do such a simple thing?
my body shakes violently
as my sobs became stronger
i wish there was someone there
to comfort me
to hug me
but i'm all alone in this room
and there's no one.
i guess i'm alone in this
with no one to help me.
as my sobs, cries, screams,
betray all the pain
i've kept in me
for so long.
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Fragments of A Soul
Poetry'I'm no longer a whole; just fragments of a soul. My life is no longer red or yellow or blue; all that's left is a greyish hue. But, my soul will be whole once again and my life will be filled with sunshine and rain. Till then, words will be my esc...
