Moon picked mates

chapter 37

Alisha POV

I just pray that Paola is safe somewhere and that her Alpha hadn't been lying to me.  I just have this nagging feeling that something is wrong with her , hopefully she is just in a dead zone without cell service. It could just be my nerves too, today has been so stressful and I have been running on fumes since this morning. It was late in the day now and my mind was burned out. Tonight when I finally hit that bed  I'm going to drop like  a ton of bricks and sleep like the dead. I'm exhausted , hungry and dirty plus in a crazy bad mood, I'm like a toddler who is so overtired that everything irritates them. 

"Maybe she really is in a dead zone for cell phone service, I can't see her Alpha letting anything happen to her. She has always been close to the Alpha and  her parents are high ranked in the pack too. Her parents would raise an army against anyone who harmed her. "  I speak out loud just to reassure myself more I think, the others in the car don't respond.   I don't think anyone believes that after everything I had told them earlier , it's the unknown that kills me.  I decide to change the subject, there isn't any use in dwelling on it when  I can't do anything about it right now. I still have my own hot mess to sort out and there is one subject I really need more information about . I'd prefer to talk to my mom or some other female , but lacking that my uncle is going to be the one . I could use his phone and call them but he is right here with me.

"Can you tell me more about mates?" I turn towards my uncle and bluntly ask him. He looks a little surprised at my quick change of subject but answers me anyway.

"What exactly do you want to know?"  I know the guys in the front can hear every word, its a small car and even without enhanced hearing they couldn't avoid it if they tried to.

"He said he was my mate and you said somethings about being separation being hard on his wolf.  I'd like a little more detail about this whole subject.  I know that mates recognize each other when they meet , but I felt nothing but hate and disgust around him.  I just wanted to be as far away as possible from him and his wolf."  I explain to him, the guys in the front are silent and the radio was turned down or off.

"Your wolf half would have known immediately if he was your mate , that is why I doubt he is your mate. I know the silver bracelet suppressed your wolf, but there would have been some attraction towards him even with it on. Your sister went through this same thing, she was drawn to him and didn't want to leave him . It was difficult to be separated for any period of time. " He goes on to explain " If he really was your mate and with him being an Alpha, he'd  feel the pull much stronger to be with you.  I would never had been able to leave with you without a physical fight if that was the case. As it was he let you go without much fuss, his wolf should have challenged me and it didn't. He didn't even get up from his chair."

"He told me all that bullshit about being mates when we were on the ship. Hell he was going to sell me to the highest bidder to be used as a whore. " I can't help the disgust in my voice "Why would he tell me something like that if it was a all just some lie? "

"I can't really answer to his reason, but I guess it would be to help break your spirit down. Rejection is hard for on your wolf , in this case it would have been the human side effected mainly because of the suppression. The mindset that a mate is your one chance for true happiness is drilled in from birth if you grew up in an pack and you seek it out. So his rejection would have been tough for your human side to take.  He doesn't know that your history I take it. " I nod my head in agreement.  "His wolf knew you were a strong person inside, can't hide your blood and wouldn't go without a fight. Even with the bracelet on there is a vibe coming off of you.  You are meant to lead a pack, you are no follower and that was a problem for him."

"So it was just to make me more submissive by trying to hurt my feelings. What an asshole. I didn't care when he rejected me and I rejected him right back. He was kinda of  surprised now that I think back about his reaction to my words.  I just got pissed off and yelled at him , in fact I ended up beating his sorry ass. Did I tell you he tried to hide under his desk when we were fighting? He's such a pussy  I knew someone like him couldn't have been paired with me. He's too weak such a poor excuse for a male shifter, that attractive to me in any way. " I got a disgusted look on my face and I know it.  " I'm drawn to males like the two big guys in the front seat, they are more my type. Tall, strong and hot as hell . "   My uncle laughed at my comments and the two guys in the front sat up a little straighter in their seats from my complements . I think I just got their full attention .